Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Pain again.

I am in a tone of pain. There is nothing that seems to help that does not make me a mindless slug. I was standing up yesterday and I heard this loud pop sound in my left hip and almost passed out from pain. I am seeing the doctor tomorrow. It was all I could do to get Mom to her chemo and back. It hurts so darn much. On top of all the other pain this is so unwelcomed and unwanted. I pray to God to give me the strength to carry on. I know he will give it to me, but right now I am in tears from the pain. I have put on a brave face all day in the online and offline worlds. Now it is time to share the pain with you and ask for your prayers. Just when I thought I was going to be a few bucks ahead I need to take cab to and from the doctors and most likely to and from the hospital. There goes my few extra bucks. But I am warm and fed and am never alone in my suffering. There is always Jesus by my side. For those who would say, “why does he not end your pain then”? I would have to say, you will never understand. Tank you lord for being there for me and hold this example to those who need it. I have wanted to vlog for a while but can’t find the words or the motivation. I have done some tags on YouTube but that is mindless and it is easy to hide the pain then. To do a vlog I would have to show more suffering than I want or I would have to lie. I don’t think I want to do either. Maybe I will vlog but I am not sure. Just pray that I am able to help my Mother, as she needs me.

Thank you – Dave.

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