Upgraded to 8GB or ram from 4GB of ram. Seems to have sped things up a little...
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
After all the pain and the tears and the fears. When you have screamed and cried and ran until you just can’t go on. There is a choice to be made. The choice to be empty inside or to open your eye and see the world for the first time. From that moment on you can wait for death or you can see the world new and fresh every day you live.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Pain level is up and climbing. Can't sleep, so I mite as well go with it. Time to do some tripping on the chemicals in my own brain :) Don't worry folks, I done this so many times. The pills do nothing on a night like tonight. I wish I could teach others how to do this, but I can't - there is no way to describe it. It's like a trip on Acid if you been there in a way, but your in control the entire time. Like being in a different world for the night.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Have you ever thought about the spirituality of pain? If you are in a lot of pain and you meditate on leaving your body, you can do so more easily. There is a term in the BDSM community called "Sub Space" - one can be lost in the lucid experience of pain and submission. One can get into a entire different way of seeing the world. The doors of perception open to you. Now if you suffer from chronic pain, you can use it to the same ends. This is one way to fight the pain; to turn it into something else. The spirit world is closer to you the more pain you are in. There is a danger though, where the dark spirits can enter your mind. This is what some actually look for. But there are ways to build immunity to the dark spirits. Still they are always waiting. But for the most part one can meat those long dead or those who are not human and never where. Some can even enter the lower levels of what we call heaven or hell.