Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Forgive, Even If They Hate You

We come to expect a level of malice in life. If you don’t learn fast to get past it, your life becomes a living hell. I learned this when I was in grade 6. It was a time when my life was in flux. Not from family or friends but from what was happening in my school. There were several people in my school who knew my Dad was a cop. They were from a family background where cops where the enemy. They treated me like shit until the point where I pushed back. I was a big boy, literally and knew how to handle myself. They found out fast that it was not OK to try and mess with me, as I could and would fight back. To make a long story short, I got in a lot of trouble over it at times but I not only defended myself but my friends. I also learned that words are just words and they cannot hurt you unless you let them.

With the acceptation of a couple of years of my life where I became mentally ill and had to be hospitalised, people with their spite and hate and malice did not affect me. This was another turning point in my life that taught me to be more kind and understanding to all around me. I saw what it was like to be in fear and to almost lose it all. If things did not turn the way they did, I would have ended up more than likely homeless or dead. Yes, it was that bad. But soon thanks to medication and the sure force of will I came back to being a strong person who was hard to piss off. I went back to using sarcastic humour to stay the stings of hurtful people.

You see I have been over sized since I was nine and since I was around twenty-five I have been very oversized. I have had a lifetime of people being rude to the point where I literally don’t notice them anymore. They point they laugh they stare they joke and I keep walking literally oblivious of what they are doing. The world of online can be a harsh place as well where people with no face hide behind an internet connection to try and harm others. The reasons are complex and widely very as to why they want to do this. The fact is that most of them are emotionally damaged people who want to feel power and have none in their lives.

It was in that time frame where I was first online in a very public manner that I fell ill. It was something called a breakout. My mind went unbalanced and I thought the world was out to get me and that I could hear people’s thoughts. Again, long story short I got over it and became the person I am now. More loving and accepting of all people but at the same time that person who uses sarcastic humour to laugh off those who would harm me.

The reality is, I literally don’t care what people think of me and I literally don’t care if they hate me. I know I am loved and I am accepted by many good people. I know these people are like family to me and in fact more so than the so called family I have. My real family literally stopped talking to me when I went on disability. I am not alone in this as at least one other in the family was treated the same way. I know it sounds harsh and evil and that I should hate them. But the reality is, I know their lives are shallow and more than likely they don’t know what it is like to be loved in a true manner. I as always forgive and move on. I do not forget though and cannot trust them and will not. But they are forgiven.

Then recently my best friend in the world, a person I have known for 35 years of my life turned on me. The reason is complicated and not the fault of myself or in reality of his. He has become slowly over the past several years a person filled with anger. He has also become a person who is not all that worthy of trust. He has taken things from his work and at that I should have realised what was happening. But I was blinded by the brotherly love I had for him. He was like family to me. He was like my brother. Then one day I needed his help and he was not giving it to me when he normally would have. He instead decided to stay home and play on the Facebook rather than to take me to the hospital. I told him right out in several texts that I needed to go and it was serious.

The injury that I had is long lasting and still affecting me rather painfully. It is such that it might not heal properly because of my size and if it does it will be many months. I pushed him on the issue of choosing to be online rather than help me. You have to realise; I was always there for him when he needed me. I never let him down. I was that way for all my friends. The act of showing my displeasure in his choice seems to have pushed him over the edge.

He went on the attack on his Facebook page. He literally made fun of my disability and of me personally. This went on for several days. Later he realised what he was doing and cleaned his page of the offensive posts. But it was way too late. The years of trust where broken and I could no longer call him a friend. I am not one to take that word lightly. It takes some doing to move from the place of someone I know to being a friend. I will NOT call someone a friend if I don’t mean it.

I know he regrets his actions and I know he knows what he has lost. I also know that the underlying problems that brought him to this point in his life are still there and that I can’t fix that. I also know he more than likely never will face the issues and will never be back to the person he used to be.

This brings us back to the point where I don’t let words affect me. Being that he was like family to me, this did hurt and it hurt bad. It caused me emotional pain that lasted months. I still grieve the loss of his friendship but with no trust in him I can’t go back to being his friend. The fact that he has not said he was sorry even underlines the issue. If he does not even have that much respect for me, he is lost to me. But yes he is forgiven. That is automatic. I always forgive. I even forgave the youth pastor who tried to molest me. It is, in my mind, not my place to judge a person as many do. Yes, we all do judge but some of us do it on a different level. We don’t condemn people.


In the end, for me love is the answer. I have love for all people, even the bad ones. I love even those who want to harm me. Not because I am told too, but because I think it is the right thing to do. I forgive the harm, but I don’t trust them. It is just to distance yourself from those who are your enemy but it is not just to hate them. Even if they hate you.

Monday, September 26, 2016

Build Your Future Wisely

When you try to show you are better than another, you show that you are not. When you try to show how much you know, you show how little you know. When you act in anger you only prove you are not worthy. We are all human and we are all worthy of the same respect unless we prove otherwise. To judge is to be judged. So seek power is to fall with no mercy.

What we do in this life forever effects the next. If you do not believe, it is your folly. We are eternal and if you seek power and wealth and glory in this life with no respect for others, then you will spend time without end alone with your own thoughts to torment you.


Life is a test and what you do counts. All that you do counts. Whether it be for a reward or for your doom is up to you. We have been shown love and mercy and if we do not give them we do not deserve them in the afterlife. What is here is but a moment in time but the hereafter is ever lasting. Build your future wisely.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Two Days In The Life

 So went for breakfast. It's $8 for 2 eggs, 3 slices of bacon, A pile of hash-browns and 2 slices of toast. This includes the coffee. It's literally the best deal in town for what you get. The only closest one is $1 more. Only at Carol's Catering and Cafe.
 Come out and realise this fellow has parked so close I can't get in the truck so my friend has to pull it ahead so I can get in. See a normal sized person might be able to get in there, but I'm over 420lbs. So I am BIG and I need a lot of room to get in. Also no handicap validation on the car in a handicap spot. Come on people being stupid or an asshole is not a handicap...
 Looked in my mail box and here was my EndoScope. Dang this is a fun toy and I have an app for it as well on the phone. It hooks to the phone or the PC. But on the PC you get 30 fps out of it and only 5 fps on the phone. Still it works well enough and has a magnet and a hook for it to fish your ring out of the drain. Also a mirror for looking close at pipe walls and what not. It was $19 shipped and I was worried it would not get to me before I moved - so I was happy.
 So next day rolls around I wake up take a pee and open the blinds, just after I start to make coffee this appears in the window. They are re-caulking the windows. They where not hard to look at all be it way too young for me, and more than likely way to straight as well. But hay it was a topic for my vlog that day.
Eat processed meat in the form of a sub and ended up with a flair from hell (Fibromyalgia). So I lay on the bed and held onto my Pusheen kitten for hours while I was in pain. I also played on Facebook on the phone every 20 minutes or so. Then I put Pusheen back in her spot and watched YouTube videos for a while then fell asleep. THUMP on my chest goes the phone and I wake up. I realise it's time to sleep, so on goes some IcyHot on my neck and I went to sleep. Pusheen always helps when I'm in pain. It was a mild but annoying flair.

Big Chicken Boob or Turkey Mislabelled?

 First it was a 2.2lb frozen lump of Chicken.
 Then it was 2.2lbs of thawed out chicken lumped in a bowl.
Then it was 5 Quarts of chicken and bean soup.

Strange thing is it tasted like turkey. Now there is a reason I don't eat turkey. I don't like it and in the last 15 years or so it has started to give me a headache when I eat it. Sadly that included that over the top awesome turkey club I reviewed the other day. Anyways not I got this headache and 3 more lumps of flesh this side to consume before Thursday and it's Saturday. If the next batch gives me a headache and tastes like turkey all the meat is a right off. The box said it was chicken but I am sure at least this piece is NOT chicken. Not to mention these big ones also have a LOT of waste in them it seems. I had to cut out a bit from it then in this bowl full alone, I spit out 4 uneatable bits of whatever it was. I guess it's beans and veggies only for the rest of the week if this is NOT chicken.

Saturday, September 24, 2016

That 60's and 70's Playlist...

1 Warren Zevon - Werewolves Of London (1978) Album: Excitable Boy

2 Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama (1974) Album: Second Helping

3 Deep Purple - Child in Time (1970) Album: Deep Purple in Rock

4 The Doors - Riders On the Storm (1971) Album:  L.A. Woman

5 Led Zeppelin- Stairway to Heaven (1971) Album: The Song Remains the Same

6 Gary Moore - Parisienne Walkways (1978) Album: Backon the Streets

7 Dire Straits - Sultans Of Swing (1978) Album: Dire Straits

8 Peter Frampton - Do You Feel Like We Do (1973) Album: Frampton's Camel

9 Ted Nugent - Stranglehold (1975) Album: Ted Nugent

10 Steppenwolf - The Pusherman (1968) Album: Steppenwolf

11 Iron Butterfly - In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida (1968) Album: In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida

12 The Animals - We Gotta Get Out Of This Place (1965) Album: Animal Tracks

13 Creedence Clearwater Revival - I Heard It Through The Grapevine (1970) Album: Cosmo's Factory

14 Arlo Guthrie - Alice's Restaurant (1967) Album: Alice's Restaurant

15 Janis Joplin - Ball And Chain (1967) Album: In Concert

16 Gordon Lightfoot - The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald (1976) Album: Summertime Dream

Friday, September 23, 2016

Weight Chart Sep 23, 2016

DATE

Mar 22, 2016
Mar 28, 2016
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 30, 2016
May 6, 2016
May 13, 2016
May 20, 2016
May 27, 2016
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 10, 2016
June 17, 2016
June 25, 2016
July 1, 2016
July 8, 2016
July 14, 2016
July 22, 2016
July 29, 2016
Aug 6, 2016
Aug 11, 2016
Aug 20, 2016
Aug 26, 2016
Sep 2, 2016
Sep 10, 2016
Sep 17, 2016
Sep 23, 2016
KG

211.3
209.2
209.6
210.1
209.1
203.7
203.7
206.4
202.8
202.1
203.1
200.9
201.9
198.7
197.9
202.4
198.6
195.8
195.1
199.0
196.2
193.6
194.2
194.4
195.2
193.3
194.2
LBS

465.0
460.2
461.2
462.2
460.0
448.2
448.2
454.2
446.2
444.8
447.0
442.0
444.2
437.2
435.4
445.4
437.0
430.8
429.2
437.8
431.6
426.0
427.4
428.8
429.4
425.2
427.4
UP or DOWN (lbs)

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-4.8
+1.0
+1.0
-2.2
-11.8
No change
+6 pizza
-8
-1.4
+2.2 Pizza
-5
+2.2 Pasta
-7
-1.8
+10 Junk Food
-8.4
-6.2
-1.6
+8.6 ?
-6.2
-5.6
+1.4 ?
+1.4 ?
+0.6 Burger
-4.2
+2.2 W.W.

Total -37.6 (27 weeks)

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Quick, What Does Toiletries Mean?




Play List Sep. 22, 2016

1 Warren Zevon - Werewolves Of London (1978) Album: Excitable Boy

2 Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama (1974) Album: Second Helping

3 Deep Purple - Child in Time (1970) Album: Deep Purple in Rock

4 The Doors - Riders On the Storm (1971) Album:  L.A. Woman

5 Led Zeppelin- Stairway to Heaven (1971) Album: The Song Remains the Same

6 Gary Moore - Parisienne Walkways (1978) Album: Backon the Streets

7 Dire Straits - Sultans Of Swing (1978) Album: Dire Straits

8 Peter Frampton - Do You Feel Like We Do (1973) Album: Frampton's Camel

9 Ted Nugent - Stranglehold (1975) Album: Ted Nugent

10 Steppenwolf - The Pusherman (1968) Album: Steppenwolf

11 Iron Butterfly - In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida (1968) Album: In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida

12 The Animals - We Gotta Get Out Of This Place (1965) Album: Animal Tracks

13 Creedence Clearwater Revival - I Heard It Through The Grapevine (1970) Album: Cosmo's Factory

14 Arlo Guthrie - Alice's Restaurant (1967) Album: Alice's Restaurant

15 Janis Joplin - Ball And Chain (1967) Album: In Concert

16 Gordon Lightfoot - The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald (1976) Album: Summertime Dream

LOL So I'm That Sick Am I?

So went over to Sask Health web page any put in my symptoms and it came out with this. I kind of wonder if it just always says this to cover their ass so to speak. I did not go and the next day I was fine but I felt like hell for 4 days at the time I did this. Flue like kind of thing. I know what would happen. Two hours in a waiting room, 5 hours in an ER room and then told "you have the flue go home" - so why bother going in. After all this is the same hospital that sent my friend and former building manger home two times with a bunch of broken ribs and a featured spine. The second time putting a soft brace on his back. After he had a heart attack and was sent to Regina they realised he has the injuries and treated them. It was all for not though as he only lasted a couple of weeks and passed away. I have to wonder if it was from the injury to his chest and it not being treated. Sigh.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

80's Songs Banned Here At One Time

1) Joan Jett and The Blackhearts - Crimson and Clover (1981) - I Love Rock 'n Roll

This was banned from the radio station at the time here in town as well as by my high school. The reasoning was that it was a lesbian love song and well that went against the laws of God. The local radio station being very part of a certain church at the time. They also played hours and hours of religious lectures and so on at night.

2) The Police – Invisible Sun (1981) - Ghost in the Machine

Banned from the radio station but not from my high school. The rezoning is it was as “offensive” look at the violence in Northers Ireland. I guess the talk of what was happening was a little too real and as a lot of things in that time on our radio station it was sanitised.

3) Billy Idol - White Wedding (1982) - Billy Idol

Banned from the radio and my high school for the reason of “being about ritualistic satanic suicide”. The thinking was that it was a code for killing yourself in the name of Satan to have power over some souls in hell. The reality that it was mocking his sister for having a white wedding when she was less than pure kind of never phased these people. Even if it was obvious to a lot of us at the time.

4) Ozzy Osbourne - Crazy Train (1980) - Blizzard of Ozz

The idea here was this was a song from an album that was done in the name of Satan. As on the cover a photo of Ozzy throwing a cross to the ground. The fact that literally nothing was Satanic on the album was beside the point. It was more cartoonish than anything in my mind. The idea that Ozzy is actually a strong Christian is kind of strange to a lot of people by the way. I know people who stopped listening to him when he came out Christian.

5) Iron Maiden - The Number Of The Beast (1982) - The Number Of The Beast

Banned on radio and at my high school. It’s relatively obvious why. It is talking about the devil, so it must be satanic worship music. We literally had a guest speaker come in and talk about this album. He said that children where killing themselves after listening to it in reverse. Not being actually stupid enough to scratch up my shinny new LP doing this, I never knew if there was a “message” or not. But I was assured by a friend there was nothing and he said he tried it 10 times. There was a massive thing in Canada and the USA over Satanic Cults at the time. None of it was credible at all.

6) Soft Cell - Sex Dwarf (1981) - Non-Stop Erotic Cabaret

Banned in both the radio station and my high school. Now this entire album was kind of a lot less offensive than this song I have to say even though there where shades of random sex and self harm along with BDSM in some of the other songs. But yes this is literally about having sex with a dwarf and random “disco dollies”. Even if it was implied and not actual. Back then the idea of the kink thing was so repulsive to the average person it was literally demonised.

7) Bronski Beat - Smalltown Boy (1984) - The Age of Consent

Banned in both I have to shamefully say. This song is literally about a small town boy who ends up having to run away from his family to find a place where he is accepted. The reason is that he is Gay. Strange thing is, they don’t up and say it but you know what they are talking about. The video for this was of course the big tell for those who did not get what the words where saying to them. To this day I have a very sad and lonely feeling in my heart when I hear this song. I know so many people who had to leave home after coming out and some who where literally beaten for it. It really is like these so called Moms and Dads are something out of the dark ages. I am Glad my parents where NOT like this.

8) Frankie Goes To Hollywood - Relax (1984) - Welcome to the Pleasuredome

Banned in both, obviously. It’s really not very veiled what this song is about. I mean you should be able to tell just by listening to it. The bin nail in the coffin was that it was done by a “notoriously gay band”. If you have seen the uncut video and not the rather silly clip loop video you will know right away that there is a lot of things that you could not show on TV at the time. That being said, they played it in Canada on Much Music late at night. See the laws where such that this content could be played after 11PM. Now it would be played in the middle of the day on any TV station. But back then NOPE.

9) Cyndi Lauper – She Bop (1983) - She's So Unusual

Banned on the radio station and the high school did not seem to know it existed or they would have banned it I am sure. But it never showed up on the list off “offensive music to avoid”. Yes, we literally had that at the time. Sigh. But the reason was it’s about masturbation and is a bit obvious about it. Like “the stroke” and “I think I am turning Japanese” and so on. BTW that last one to this day my friend will insist it’s about the Japanese taking over the electronics market world wide. I know – It’s like they up and said I’m jerking off to the rest of us, but to him no. Strange because he normally got the sex songs.

10) Dead Kennedys - Too Drunk to Fuck (1980) - Fresh Fruit for Rotting Vegetables

Banned in both. Literally only because people requested it at the radio station and talked about it in the halls. Otherwise they would never have heard of it. Like a lot of the punk movement in the time it was spread by word of mouth and underground pirate radio (yes we had that here for a short time). It’s over the top obvious why it was banned in a religious radio station and a Catholic high school.


* On a side note I did a book report on the collective works of Poe and was almost kicked out of class for it. I had to literally ask why the nice nun was so offended. Turned out the book was banned in our school and I did not know it. I just liked his work and picked up the book at a sale in a Regina book store one day after reading it from the public library. She literally told me to stick to Robert Keats. Always thought that was funny, but that is another story.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Why me?

Why me?

Can this have an answer that will fit what the person is feeling and thinking at the time? All answers from others will only be a projection of themselves on the situation or a criticism of the situation that is unjust. To answer it for yourself, you have to remove yourself from the situation long enough to do so and most people can't do that. But if you do, it will not fix the situation and then you are left with the question of how to fix it or can it be fixed and so on and so on. Honestly when I think of this question in respect to my own life, I am reminded of my Dad (a wise and rental man) who said "because nothing is fare and the unexpected happens to the good and the bad people". This is a great answer of course, but it is not the consolation that people are looking for in this situation. Still it changed my perspective on it and gave me a new tool in life to go past a situation that is our of my control. For others I think there can be no answer as none will do. To others still there can be many answers or none needed. The best my one friend can come up with is "why not you"? this is a reflection of how everyone has a chance at any moment of it all going to hell. It happens and you can get past this moment and push on or let it destroy you. There can be no answer for you, but for me I think I have one.

Sorry for the lack of paragraphs and so on. This really is not my strongest skill set.

My Greatest Failing


No Safe Place AKA You're The Victim


Yet More Thumbnail Examples For YT Videos







 This was a fail. Should have used a light neutral background instead of the rust thing.



Friday, September 16, 2016

Understanding A Life Time Of Self Abuse (Over Eating)

When I was a kid I knew in advance if I was going to like something new. The smell gave it away every time. I would say "no it's not good". Mom would always say "you will like it" or "you don't know until you try". 100% of the time I hated it if I did not like the smell. Then I would be forced to eat it or sit there until I did. Well 80% of the time I did not eat it and sat there for hours before being sent to bed.

There was also portion control. Mom would put what she thought I should eat on the plate and I would be told that I had to eat it all even if I was full. I at the time knew just when I was full, but now I don't really know when I am full and it is because of a life time of eating past the point of my body telling me it's had enough and to the point that I feel packed. Honestly the size of portions that most people eat in our society is much more than we need. This is why most people do not know when they are actually full and keep eating. After years of this kind of thing your body ignores the trigger that the brain is given to say stop in favour of the sensation of being filled up.

Then there was rewards. I was not given things or told I did good most of the time. My parents where both raised by people who did not know how to show love and thus did not know how to say "I love you" without the feeling of being uncomfortable. Thus I was rewarded with food. I was given candy or baked goods to reward me for doing good in school or doing my chores around the house with no hassle.

For a long time I did not know how to handle feelings. As in being rewarded I was also comforted with food. If I was depressed I was fed. If I was upset at something that happened at school I was fed. If I was punished I was then fed to show that I was still loved. This created the need to medicate all feelings with food. Being that all happy events in my life until I was at least 18 involved being fed to the point of being uncomfortable, even if I was overly happy I would eat.

The patterns I learned as a child stuck with me for most of my adult life even when I did learn to deal with emotions in a proper manner. I learned to express myself and to deal with dark feelings on my own terms. But the pattern was still there. It was literally only recently, as in the last six months, that I started to at least try and manage my eating. The damage is done, my heart is damaged, my body is damaged and I will never live to be an old man because of it all.

Who is to blame? It would be so very easy to just shift the blame on my parents and say "well they did this to me". But the reality was I was educated early in adult life as to what continuing on this path of self destruction would lead too. I made more than a few excuses and like the overwhelming majority of overweight people I kept telling the world "I tried it all and it just does not work". The pure denial that I was not trying at all and just making a token effort never sank into my mind. I honestly though that I was trying. So the vast majority of the blame is square on my shoulders and not on anyone else.

Yes there are conditions that I have that cause most of the pain I am in and they could not have been prevented. The reality though is a bit more complicated. The pain is made worse by the lack of ability to move around properly and the extreme weight I am at causes me to be in pain every time I walk. Being that the best thing for me would be to exercise and I am now to the point where it causes me untold pain to just take out the trash has prevented me from trying. That is until recently. Now I do force myself to move around a bit in order to try and stay off the progression of my body becoming useless to me.

The failing has come recently due to the fact that I have been forced by government cutbacks to move from my apartment to subsidised housing. The stress of this I can not express in words. Unless you know the pain and suffering in your mind of anxiety to the point of terror you can not be told how it is. This will literally not stop until I am moved and settled in. I have taken months of hard work and tossed them aside by eating my face off in the hope that it will make me feel better. The sad reality is, when I am eating I am happy and I am not in a state of panic. But then I stop and it all rushes back in and on top of it is the sad knowledge that I just eat enough food for 3 people and I have once again harmed myself. It is an uncontrollable compulsion when I am in this state of utter panic and sadness.

I am not trying to blame this round of my failing myself on the Sask Party and it's heartless cutbacks. There is enough blame for damage done to people in that instance to go around. The real blame is fifty years of being trained by others and myself to deal with emotions by eating and eating and eating. Trust me when someone like me does this, it's never a big salad we dive into, it's always junk food.

I honestly do not know if I can go against fifty years of mistreating my body and make it to the point where I am no longer in danger of dropping dead from my eating habits. I am trying and to say this is the hardest thing I have ever done is to understate the experience greatly.

Although I do want to live to be an old man and I do want many more years, I accept that I might not have that many left and I accept it's all on me for doing this to myself. Like my drunk brother, no one could tell me until it was too late. I am ready to die, I have accepted mortality and believe in a life after this one. I also want more life. I don't want to leave my friends behind and I do not wish for death. I merely accept it's a possibility. So come what may, I am ready for it and I will keep trying.

Thursday, September 15, 2016

The World Famous AxeMoose Vlogs - Ya Know Ya Wanna

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Thinking About RV Life And Winning The Lotto

So we come out of the truck stop and here is this think getting diesel. Now every time we see something like this a friend would say "that's not camping". Well, no it's not. The idea here is it's your home. You travel from RV park to RV park and enjoy being all over the place and never have to pay $180 or more a night to stay in a hotel some place. You have all you need and can stay up to 3am watching movies and no one calls the front desk to have you bitched out by the night manger. It really is not the life for me. I am too sick to travel now. So if I did have piles of money at hand, I would spend it on a better computer, faster internet and a LOT more cable TV - not to mention a much bigger TV. But I have met more than a few people who do the RV living when I used to live close to an RV park and for the most part, they are older folks who just want to enjoy the life of drifting around while they can. Some say it's stupid as hell to live like this, but some would say it's stupid as hell to own a house and a BIG TV with lots of Cable. The fact is we are all different and no matter what you want out of life, as long as you are not harming others - GO FOR IT all the way. My cleaner friend would LOVE to spend the rest of his life travelling. I on the other hand can count on one hand places I still want to go and see.

BTW the lotto is $60,000,000 tomorrow and I gots a ticket. Ya know, if I won I don't think I would say anything to my online peeps. I would just get a house and the things I want and move in and see how long it takes them to realise I am NOT in an apartment any more. Then again I think if I was the only winner at least half of the money would go to good causes and helping out friends. The rest would go to get the things I want and I would live off the interest - very well off the interest I might add. When I died, my friends (who I guarantee will out live me) will get more money and the rest to more good causes. BTW thinking that the stuff I want will be 2 mill and the 28 mill invested at prime rate right now is $764,000 a year. Even if the taxes on the interest where 50% it's a crap load more than I need.

Think Before You Drink And Drive


This was out front of my building the other night. It seems the person in the blue truck was driving drunk and travelling at a high rate of speed. He came around the corned of 1st NW and Fairford St West and jumped the raised median. He then went head on into the silver truck and caused a 6 car chain reaction. 5 of the vehicles where towed away as they where damaged so badly the police did not want then to be driven. All of the owners of the parked cars where attending a Dolly Parton concert at Mosaic Place here in Moose Jaw. I was unable to stay standing long enough for the people to come out of the stadium but I am sure they where in sock over losing such a valuable possession that they worked very hard to obtain. One stated for the local news paper that she felt very violated (From the Times Herald). I know first hand how an addiction to drinking can destroy lives. I saw my brother turn from a fit and able man with a family into a person who ended up alone in a care home unable to take care of himself. He lost it all, his jobs, his family and his mobility and ability to care for himself. I have known people who have had a family member taken from them by a crash and witnessed the pain that will never leave them destroy them. To anyone who thinking that drinking and driving is no big deal, you are with no doubt in my mind a fool. I have even heard people say "I drive better drunk because I am more careful". The folly of that statement can not be imparted on them. They honestly believe it. I can only think God that no one was hurt badly or killed in this indecent. Please if you have to drink (and I do drink) think before you crab the keys. Think of your life and the lives of others.

Carol's Clubhouse Sandwich Review

This fellow here was so freaking big that it would NOT go in my mouth. Oh so tasty and fresh and well, BIG. It came out and my friends had to say "It's bigger than your head". LOL. Seriously though, there sure is a reason we keep going to Carol's Catering and Cafe out on the North Service Road here in Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan, Canada. And that potato salad was great as well. I was over the top full after I finished all this and I am a REALLY big man. I am 6 foot tall and 432 lbs. So I can pack it away. And if you are after breakfast or a good brunch buffet, this is sure the place to go when you are in town. There is a reason I have rated the place 5 Stars.

Best Semi Parking Ever

So Mr. Truck Driver decides to pull off the road and go in to eat something. Mind you, literally next to the front of his truck is is entry to a big ass empty place to part his truck. The business there has been closed for some time and I am sure no one will mind. The road he is parked on has no shoulder so he is actually blocking a lane of traffic. Not to mention that he is also blocking anyone from exiting the restaurant in a safe manner. We literally had to pull out to the point we could have been hit by traffic coming the other way. BTW most of the traffic on this road is thinks like you see parked here, so getting hit would more than likely end up. There are 2 large truck stops down the way BTW where he could have pulled in for a bite to eat, but NOPE had to be right here. Is it just me or do other people think that this fellow should literally not be driving this thing? Sigh.

Best Windows Update Ever

So yuppers two updates AFTER the big ass update to the Anniversary edition and the web cam still won't play on ANYTHING but the windows 10 photo app. Run Skype CRASH, run my recording software CRASH, try to go live on YT CRASH. Sigh.

So the idea of "Mpeg is not fast enough of a format for slower computers" was a great idea. Sigh, never mind that literally everything out there uses it as the standard. Sigh... So now even after several updates the most common web cam on the market don't work. Neither do about any web cams out there. But for once in their entire existence MS is looking out for the older systems. Ya know - them slower old models that literally can't run windows 10. Them being the only ones who would have a problem capturing 1080p video off the webcam. Sigh. So if I can think of this being over the top stupid and literally every blog post or news article I have seen thinking it is stupid - some how MS thinks it's the best idea ever.

So literally anyone out there who relied on the web cam is now toast. No more video conference for you all. I can literally feel the air change as millions of businesses switch to Mac so they can be rid of the world of stupid that is MS development. Seems when someone at Apple is found to be too dumb to do the job they just send them over to Micro$oft.

Best Video Player Ever

HTML 5 player is the best thing ever they said. Not got all them bugs like Flash they said. So the video stalls just before the end but the time keeps counting up. When I realised it was actually OVER the end time I just had to take a screen cap. Kind of wonder if I left it all night if it would have just kept counting up? Not to mention things that are 3 years old keep showing up in my subscription feed. That and the same videos show up 2 or 3 times on occasion. Yuppers this switch to HTML 5 is the best choice YouTube has ever made I tell you.

Best Coupon Ever

So I had this coupon right. 1 10 piece of wings and all that for a "discount price". The drinks where regular price. Turns out the coupon here literally saves you a penny. I'm amazed to the point of shock at how great this deal was.

Monday, September 12, 2016

99 Bottle Of Beer

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