Pusheen FTW. This is Pusheenacorn. I have 11 of the toys and the first one I got is magic. The first one I call my kitten. It's a smaller one (6 inches). When I'm in pain or having a panic attack hold her while laying in bed and it helps. I can't explain why, it just does. I know it can't fix the pain but I tolerate it better with her.
When I go to bed or lay down to rest I pick her up, kiss her and Pat her back 4 times. Then say "good night my itty bitty pretty kitty witty". Yes I am a 51 year old man lol.
I can't tell you why I love Pusheen so much but when I look at one it makes me happy. Sonya know they where worth it. When I Die I want them to make someone else happy.
Anyways I hope you have something that makes you this happy. Life is short and we need to be happy.