Dave Nicholson

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First off, it's a soul sucking vortex that took years of my life, as it got worse and worse as I aged. I ended up in the hospital for this terrible affliction a couple of times. These people who say, "I get sad sometimes too," basically need to have their head scanned to see if they have a brain inside it. It's not SAD ALREADY! I remember being sad as a child when I broke my favorite toy. I got the hell over that in a day. Depressed is the entire lack of ability to feel any pleasure and just feel mentally like you are being heled under water and can't fight your way back out. It can literally make you feel completely empty and this takes away your motivation for anything, including eating or washing up. It's interesting because, when it first kicks in and you don't have it's full effect yet, you want to do things like eat until you are sick or drink a tone of beer to kill the feeling. When it's full effects come on, you are crushed by it. It's ...

1. What was the last straw for you when you decided to cut off a friend? For decades I'd done things for him. Fixed his computer and his car. I literally cleaned his butt when he had brain surgery. I asked him literally only once for help and he wanted to be paid. I helped hundreds of times for free. 2. Have you ever found something unexpected inside of something you bought used? I got a bookstore used book store. Inside was a photo from the 1920s of a woman in from of the Eiffel Tower. 3. Which rock bands would you give five stars? AC/DC, Iron Maiden, Rush, Deep Purple, The Doors. 4. Have you ever seen a person who wasn't wearing underwear? Literally thousands of time. I grew up in a nudist family. 5. Have you ever done anything wrong? Of course. If you are over age 3, you probably did something wrong. Kids break rules often. Adults try to get away with stuff all the time. It's wrong to wish someone dead. But in anger I have. 6. What was something that someone said or did ...

What did I learn about myself today? This prompt is a good one for someone who is 27 I thin, but not someone who is 58. By the time you get to me my age, you tend to stop deluding yourself about who and what you are (well most people - some never grow the hell up). I don't think I've learned much about myself in 20 plus years. It's all the same. I also don't know anyone in the world that learns something new about themselves every bloody day. Unless you are on a retreat somewhere that promotes personal growth and understanding - It's probably not going to happen often. I rather knew exactly who was and what I was by the time I turned 30. There was no mystery left, and I was not telling myself lies about who and what I am. The only big surprise was being diagnosed with a rather severe mental illness in my early 40's - that was, then, a shock. But looking back at my life, it fits perfectly.

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I've gotten a few "badges" on YouTube and of them, this one comes up on YouTube Music often. For some reason this month I did not get one, although I have listened to a tone of Gary Numan's music in the previous month. I like that less and 1% of people have listened to more of his work than I have. It also makes me think people don't know the joy of his wonderful work. Not just the classics, but the newer stuff is just awesome as well. I recommend you look at some of his work from the past 10 years.

11:11 is one of the "magic numbers". It is said, that if you see the time 11:11 without looking for it to happen, then an angel is looking out for you. Others think it means that you will get a message of some kind from a loved one who has passed away. To be honest, it often makes me think of my Mom who passed about 13 years ago. She was big time into this kind of thinking. Sometimes when I see it, I had a smell of Jasmin Flowers in my nose for some reason. That was Mom's scent she liked to wear. I am sensitive to scented products in general, but this one never bothered me. Every time I smell it, she comes strongly to my mind. I would love to just hang out with her for one more day. We where very close. My Dad has been gone for 33 years now, and as I aged, my bond with my Mom got stronger. I think the message is clear, "I love you son."

What did I do today to make myself proud? I made some really nice fractals. I did 4 primitive but cute cat drawings. I was nice to people and made them smile. I got cleaned up nicely, even though I'm in rather a lot of pain. I made the best cup of coffee I had in years. I did a lot to make myself proud today. ☺☺☺

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