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Feeling Abandoned by the SAID Program (Saskatchewan Disability)

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"Saskatchewan Department of Human Services" is the closest translation to Saskatchewan Social Services Department I could get. But I made them a new logo. They are the ones who run the disability here in the province. I know someone is picking up for my working not working there anymore, but it's been a LONG time and no call from them at all. I sent an email request to the email I was told to send it to. I called the number twice after that to leave a message. This is not cool from email to now is 4 working days. In all that time surly, it's my turn to be handled? I'm very upset and it's literally making me sick. So some art therapy is in order I think. To be honest I've had it a LOT better with them than the medical system to say the least, but DANG, I'm stressed out to the max and I am getting frightened that something very bad has gone wrong like thy messed up and closed my file by mistake. It HAS happened to a friend, so don't think it's no

Lost Respect For Humanity?

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I've been asked when I lost respect for humanity in general. Well, there is more than just a quick answer to that. For the most part, since the 1980's I've had little respect for humanity and have thought we are totally doomed one of these days from our own actions. But the big fall in respect came in 2020 when people started to panic buy everything in site, and the store shelves where left empty. For people like myself, and most people I know, it's not possible to just go get a truck load of stuff from the store when we want to do that. In fact for most people alive, this is not a possibility. For the most part it seems to have been the upper middle class who thought, "fuck everyone else, I've got mine." There where people literally on video grabbing stuff out of the hands of little old ladies in the stores. It was hell on earth for people like me who tend to NOT be able to go to the store often and need to shop for the month all at once. The result of th

6 Blog Posts in 1 - AKA a Lot to Say (Story Time as Well)

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This is in 2004 when I was almost 500 lbs. The tree is in a park in Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan, Canada. The thing is, trees in Saskatchewan don't tend to get even close to the size of this one. Also, I'm not sure if it's still there, as I've not been down there in at least 13 years. It was not in great shape, and had a crack in it that was being held together with metal cable. I am reminded there was a, "soul tree" in the aria in the 1980's it was cut down due to, "Satanic Panic". There was a rumor that the local devil cult was going to sacrifice a baby on the spot. This was totally unfounded of course, as they tended to just do drugs and hang out talking about a made up heritage. It's the same year that city council had people not send their children out on Halloween for the same reason. This turned out to be the work of one mouthy 13 year old that spread the falsehoods all over the place. There was also an incident with a daycare where the chi

Medical Update (Disturbing Photo Warning)

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On Dec. 31, 2023 I was laying on the floor in my apartment for 7 hours after falling when I got too drunk. I wan not able to get up and it took some time for anyone to hear me calling for help. I find it amazing that the people on either side of me, or across the hall heard nothing, but the lady way down the hall did hear me. She called an ambulance for me and I was helped off the floor with use of an air bag designed just for this task. I was taken to the hospital and seen right away. When in the hospital I was advised I needed a CT scan of my brain right away, as I'm on blood thinners and they worried about bleeding into my brain, since I could not recall falling. The CT operator in the Moose Jaw hospital was not available and I had to be taken to Regina General to have the scan. Fortunately, I did not have any bleeding in my brain. I have to say, that after being on the floor for 7 hours, if I did, I'd be dead or a salad plate by the time I was found. But better to be cautio

Don't Let Hate Discourage You, You Are Valid

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I've been online since 1997. First in the news groups that where the  big thing in the day, then on YouTube and several social media sites that popped up in the early days. I've seen sites come and go, and I've also seen a hell of a lot of angry people who hide behind a screen to lash out at others. When I say I've seen a lot of hate, I mean a LOT. Being a person of size, and of the LGBTQ+ community who never hid who I am, I ran into a lot of people looking to offend. I have to admit, in the early days, it worked as I was not on the right meds and my emotions where all over the place and I would go from extremely happy, to very sad in seconds - pissed off was easy in that time frame. But it was not long before I ended up being treated for my mental illness in a correct manner and it was all levered out. After this, it was water off a ducks back, and it became very hard to offend me. I had the ability to reason, and realized how sad a life people like this have. They nee

220 Questions in 22 Parts

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220 Questions Part 1 of 22 1. What’s something you wish you could do again for the first time?  2. Name a hard but important lesson you’ve learned. 3. What is hard for you but easy for others?  4. What do you want but will never have?  5. What’s your most controversial opinion?  6. What fictional character do you most relate to? 7. When do you feel like the best version of yourself?  8. What book, movie or video game made you change the way you look at the world?  9. What occupation do you admire but could never do? 10. Who is your nemesis? Why? 220 Questions Part 2 of 22 1. How are things getting better?  2. How are things getting worse?  3. What person do you most look up to? Why? 4. What story have you told people the most?  5. What are your top 5 TV series? 6. What job would you choose to have if money were no object? 7. What’s the fastest way to make you mad?  8. What is the most useless skill you have?  9. What is your least favorite word?  10. What have you learned this week tha

25 Questions for You

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1. What are the advantages of being single? 2. If you could choose to have never been born, would you? 3. If you could live your life over from the age of 10 with all the knowledge you have now, would you? 4. How do you deal with a person who gets angry over some little thing? 5. Do you think society in general is becoming more depressed? 6. Have you ever been manipulated by anyone? 7. Have you ever cheated on a lover? 8. Have you ever been cheated on by a lover? 9. What’s the best thing to say after someone rejects you? 10. Did a past friend turn out to not be the person you thought they were? 11. When was the time you lost faith in humanity? 12. Do good and evil exist external to the human condition? 13. What is a talent you wish you had? 14. What are 3 good memories you have from your youth? 15. If you could instantly learn 3 languages, what would they be? 16. What are 3 regrets you have? 17. Do you have a 5 year plan? 18. Does pain really change who a person is? 19. What of the 5 s

The Crystal City, Hub of the Afterlife

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The Crystal City is the hub in the afterlife it is said. In this place you are judged and then if needed educated. You go from the city to other places in the dimension to life and/or work. It is said that bearings from many worlds and even other dimensions are in the city. The ones that are there do the work of education and a panel of beings judges you worthy or not. They review your entire life and mark in your personal book of life if every action was positive or negative (good or evil). If you are judged unworthy, you are transported to a place that is filled with others of your kind and you are left to fend for yourselves. If you are worthy, you must select a place to stay, once that is done, you are given all the knowledge you need to live and possibly work there. Not everyone choses to work in the afterlife but some do. You can manifest things for yourself in the place you are sent, so work is only for peace of mind, and not needed. It is also said that sex as we know it does n