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To Hell With Your Facebook Group

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Just dumped a local group from my life forever on Facebook. What a bunch of ignorant people. It started with a woman asking for help to feed her children because they ran out of money and the food bank is over limit and gives very little now. Well all kinds of twats jumped on her telling her to get a job and much more. They no literally nothing about the families situation and they don't care, they live to look down on others and attack them for daring to be poor, or disabled, or whatever. I've seem far too much of it over the two years I've been a member and I'm freaking done with it. No more. This is every day someone gets attacked by ass-hats looking to offend anyone they can. You would think there was no mods at all, but there is. They seem to only take down posts for people looking to sell things and so on, while allowing businesses to post ads all they want. Not one of this group of malevolent twats has been booted or even restricted. I'm in it to ask question

I Made My Bean Mix

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I'm glad I did this yesterday, I'm to shaky today to have done it .  

I Hate Living With These Tremors In My Hands

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Seriously not doing well today. My hands are super shaky yo the point it is hard to feed myself. I'm typing this with one finer resting my arm on the desk, or it would be impossible. It seriously seems I'm getting more health issues every day. I would rather be dead than in a care home, so this is seriously worrisome. I'm scared to go for coffee this way, I don't want to splash it all over in public. Honestly, I find myself wanting to just not wake up in the morning. I don't want to live this way. But I carry on literally for the love of my friends who are closer to me than what is left of my so called family.  

10 Underrated Horror Movies - Quick Reviews

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Excision (2008) My rating: 8/10 IMDB: 6.9/10 This is an 18 minute short about a girl who wants to be a doctor, but she is dangerously insane. It shows how she deals with people opposing her at school and what she wants to do with them in her mind. We Go On ((2016) My rating: 6/10 IMDB: 5.8/10 A man offers $30,000 to anyone who can prove there is an afterlife. It comes down to 3 people who he thinks might know something. The more he gets into it the stranger things get. Road Games (1981) My rating: 6/10 IMDB: 6.6/10 An American trucker in Australia plays a game of cat and mouse with a man in a green van who he thinks is trying to kill the woman he picked up on the road. Big Bad Wolves (2013) My rating: 8/10 IMDB: 6.8/10 A child molester gets away with it due to lack of evidence, and the child's father and a cop go about torturing him. Kidnapped (2010) My rating: 6/10 IMDB: 6.4/10 Starts out with a main character getting killed by a car trying to escape. Goes back in time showing the

A Month of Hell

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In 4 weeks I've injured me knee bad enough to need a cane. I've developed Edema and it's not going away with a water pill. Then came a series of blood clots in the back of my led. I think hurt my back. Right now a randomly accruing severe pain in my testicles is going off on me. It's not been a good month at all. There is also that I have been broke for months and if I was not given money for some fun I would have had nothing but suffering for a month. At this exact moment I'm kind of sure I just pulled a muscle on my chest - I've done it several times in the past and it feels exactly the same. My left foot is over twice it's normal size and it's hard to put a shoe on it. I need a test before I see the doctor again, and as of now no one has called me to come in for it. I'm falling apart it seems.  

Humanity Will Never Be Free of Oppression

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  I listen to every episode of The Moth on my podcast app. They are always entertaining, moving, inspirational, and sometimes devastating to listen to. Today I got devastating. I listened to a woman who was a reporter traveling to Syria to report on the civil conflict there. This ends up making me feel so bloody lucky to be where I am, so I will never experience the things she did. She describes being in a cell not knowing if she is going to die. The cell is covered in blood. She focuses in on a young boy being tortured to death. She listens as he screams in pain and begs to God for help, and cries out for his Mother. This makes me so intensely sad for people who live this. It also fills me with intense rage toward people who can do things like this and still sleep at night. Humanity can be the most glorious of creatures and the worst of demons. Long ago I lost the ability to think we will not end our planet in a hellish nuke fight. Things like this make it harder for me to see that h

Deep Dream Generator - I Think It's Fun

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Been playing with the free version of Deep Dream Generator . You get 20 points and they regenerate after a few hours. Later if you keep up it promotes you to Dreamer from Member and you get 35 points and a slightly faster regeneration time. I have done almost all of my play time on it at the base settings, but you can make the image bigger, and make it better quality. I just want to play and pass time, so the base settings is good enough for me, and I can crank out 7 images with my 35 points. I have saved every last one of them and have made puzzles out of  396 of to the time of this post. It's very easy to use and you should be able to get onto it in a half an hour or so. All but 3 of mine have been text to Dream only and I have only used a base image 3 times so far. It's an enjoyable hobby, but I'm not going to call it creating art. There has been people who say it is creating art however. They claim it's just another tool like Blender . It's to my knowledge the o

My 20 Hour Trip to the ER in Moose Jaw

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This is me in the hospital on hour 13 of a 20 hour stay. My legs are extremely swollen and so are my feet. I explained in detail what is going on and how hard it is for me to walk right now. I was given blood work, and EKG and an ultrasound. No blog clots where found in my legs thank the Goddess. However diagnostic imaging is not available all the time in our hospital it seems. I had to wait until noon the next day to get the test done. The staff where wonderful but overworked as there was a great deal of people in the ER that night and the next day. I've been hearing from people around the world, all saying there is a global shortage of nurses, techs and so on. I know it's the case here. I also know from people I know and trust, that a lot of corners are cut in our Saskatchewan hospitals by management, no doubt on government pressure to cut costs. The fact is, staff who are working too hard for too long makes it not safe for the staff or the patients. Mistakes can be made when