Showing posts from July, 2017

3 Album's By 3 Friends

Cursi - Empty Diary
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Manolis Paschalidis - Portrait
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Rebecca Tompkins - Elemental Daughter
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Beatles Playlist

1 Hey Jude
2 Norwegian Wood
3 While My Guitar Gently Weeps
4 In my Life
5 Let It Be
6 Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds
7 Revolution
8 Yesterday
9 Imagine
10 Penny Lane
11 Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band
12 Eleanor Rigby
13 Here Comes The Sun
14 A Day In The Life
15 Don't Let Me Down
16 Hello, Goodbye

Surf Playlist

1 Dick Dale - Misirlou
2 The Champs - Tequila
3 Surfaris - Wipe Out
4 Mason Williams - Greensleeves
5 George Baker Selection - Little Green Bag
6 The Chantays - Pipeline
7 The Ventures - Walk Don't Run
8 The Tornados - Telstar
9 Mason Williams - Classical Gas
10 The Outlaws - Ambush
11 The G-Men - Raunchy Twist
12 The Irradiates - Atom Boogie
13 The Ventures - Hawaii Five-O
14 The Taikonauts - Panic In Pink City

Why Do I Even Want This Thing?

GOD I am so part of western culture. I want something because I can have it. I also realize I will never in my life make use of it and it will sit in a storage container for the rest of my life and I will not even look at it... But I want it... We are literally programmed all out lives with advertising that things will make us happy. Well now and then like my Pusheens they do - but almost always they don't for long and we lack the desire to get rid of the junk. So what happens? We buy new shit and put the old shit in storage. Ever wonder why there are so many storage places? Think about it... Anyways I'm off to pretend Pusheen is flying around the apartment... Sigh... Actually I'm going to look for random things on Amazon...

2 Examples Of Crazy In My Life

OK just told someone it's been 12 years BUT I did the math and it's 21 years. I know a guy who has been telling everyone he can that he is dying. He keeps saying he only has 9 months to live or 2 years to live - depends on his mood at the time. MANY times he came out with "I got put on an experimental treatment program and it saved my life" only to be saying next month to others that he is going to die soon.
The same person of course keeps going on about having his job terminated because a service organization in town is going to his boss and telling lies about him. This is of course insane. He keeps doing things to get himself fired like "not showing up for work and not calling in sick" or "telling a co-worker that is 20 years younger than him to show up at his place with beer and you better look sexy". Yet it's not his fault at all he gets fired from every job.
The same person is into cars. Well he has scammed parts of of people that he befrie…

Survey While On The Can

So did a product survey last night on the phone while I sat on the toilet... Well they gave me 10 airmiles and it's lost time being on the can otherwise... So...
Anyway, I looked at this page of it and though "OMG I'm about screwed". LOL. I'm only freaking 50 and look at all the crap that is wrong with me. The next 3 pages where about the same...
But now I'ma get some nice samples of old people over the counter pain meds WOOT. As long as they don't send me a diaper I'll be fine with it. They did actually ask what pant size I used... Hmmm...
I'll do things for samples you see. I can't remember what the actual hell they are sending me now. Dang it's only been 18 hours. I should know what they said they where sending. Sigh...

Young Folk In Old Folks Homes

So I live in a "seniors building" although I am only 50. There are people that I have met and who I see spouting off online about "young people in these places".
Here is the ticket, this is a subsidized building and is meant for old folk and DISABLED folk. Yes they have actually let in a couple of people not in either category.
Here is the thing, this building is a bit less than half empty. So rather than build yet another place for able bodied poor people to go, they let them into places like this now and then when all the other spots are taken. This makes sense to me, yet to some "it's a senors building OMG the world will end if a young person gets in".
There is a board what sits and makes the decision to let people in here or not. It's not just random people being let in. You have to have met certain conditions.
But alas there is always going to be someone who keeps endlessly saying how they should NOT be allowed in. The fact that to run a building…

For Those Who Judge The Disabled

This is the view of the same thing below but from the lower resolution security camera as seen from my TV on the live feed. The image looks entirely different than when you see it up close and in better resolution. Until then, you literally don't understand what you are seeing. Once you get a closer look you see what is going on and understand it.
This is like when you see someone who is disabled and think "you don't look disabled". When you see a fat person in a scooter at Walmart the first thing that comes to mind for you is to post a photo on Facebook showing "the lazy fat person".
You have literally no idea why that person got to be that size, you also have no idea if they are actually capable of walking in the first place. Yet our society seems to think that it's OK to just say "lazy fat person" and laugh about it.
It's a mix of why I got to be almost 500 lbs a few years ago and hit the 6 XL mark for clothing. First you have to know that …

What Is Real?

Memory is where our shared concept of reality breaks down. Three people share the same event and at the time see it as the same. 30 years later the same people talk about the event and there will be 3 rather different views of it. We lose bits of the memory over time - they are erased from out mind. The brain then fills in the missing parts with our other experiences and ideas.
Another example is a person has NEVER been to a place. If he/she is told by someone they trust many times that they where there, then when the experience is described, that person will remember being there.
As well if there is stress or trauma to the event, often every last person will have differences in how it happened. We are easy to bend what we know as "real".
The image you see if you know me you will more than likely know what you are seeing. Others will think it different. Some as well, who do NOT know me will see it as what it is.
It's actually amazing to me that we have a shared concept of re…

Real Mans Coffee Cup AKA Lots About My Coffee Addiction

Well this is my coffee cup. You know how most people actually wash it when they are done with it? Well I just let it sit on the end table until the next use generally.
I'm sure there is some kind of slight health risk but oh well. It's not for lack of desire to be clean as my place and the other dishes are spotless all the time.
I just have been leaving it dirty for weeks on end for my entire coffee drinking life. Sure in the start when I was still with Mom and Dad, Mom would grab it and clean it. Then I moved out and from day one it sat dirty.
I tend to get bored of using the same cup after a week or two then I clean the old one off nice and good and put it away then get out a new one to let stand for a week or two.
I swear it does not actually effect the taste all that much, but it does make people say something when they see it. I just tell them "It's a real mans coffee cup". They generally roll their eyes at this point.
BTW I normally drink 6 to 10 cups of coffee …

And For Movie Day (On Netflix)

Sunday is watch way too many movies day. I have lined up "What We Do In The Shadows, Demon Inside, Cross and Doctor Strange". I know, they are very different kinds of movies but hay - I'm random some times.
What We Do In The Shadows is a comedy about a group of vampires sharing housing and trying to adapt to the modern world. I expect I will enjoy this one a lot.
Demon Inside is a horror/Thriller is about a famous psychic who suffers a trauma and shuts her self away from the world. But it turns out she is also shut away with demons. This is the kind of not overly popular horror film that I like.
Cross is a Crime Thriller from Hong Kong. It's about a man whose terminally ill wife commits to stop her pain. He then turns to helping others who can't go threw will killing themselves end their lives. I've seen several of the same brand of movies from the same director and liked them so I added this one.
Doctor Strange is a a comic book superhero movie in which a neuros…

Might Just Wonder To The Park Tomorrow

I may just wonder over to the building you see behind me in this shot. That being the Art Museum...

I've not been since last year even though I have walked past several times this year and in fact took a pile of photos just next door to it.

If I do go I am also going to go take a video clip of the bridge and the war memorial on the other side of it.

It's a wonderful park to say the least and I enjoy being close to it. When I am NOT in too much pain or too sick to go see it I wonder over there. It's just a block away and if I take it easy it's not hard on me.

I'm dead broke so no donation from me, but oh well. I do want to see what they have up in there and so on. I might go to the library as well and get myself a card and see if I can't get hold of a book I been wanting to read. It says they have it and it's out of print and there are NO digital copies to be had.

4 Examples Of YouTube Thumbnails


Me No Sleep At Night AKA Chronic Illness And Sleeping

It's about to hit 2 am and I have the deep desire to put on a pot of coffee and stay up all night to try and reset my sleeping patterns. But I'll be good and not do it although it's tempting to try.
I've not slept normally in years actually. In fact 41 years to be exact. My sleeping troubles started when I was just 9 years old.
In the last 17 years since I became too disabled to work it's gotten much worse as well, I have nothing forcing me to go to bed like needing to get up in the morning. Now and then I DO need to for an appointment and generally if it's before noon I'll stay up then sleep after. If it's after noon then I will get very little sleep and go to it all scrambled.
Seems my brain wants to work better starting around 9 pm and works faster and smoother until around 5 am. Most of the time I'm asleep by 3:30 am though. Still it's a bother.
Enter living in an old person building. Well the building I am in is for seniors and the disabled. We…

Super Kitty To The Rescue

I'm a 50 year old well adjusted male I swear I am. Yet this little stuffed toy is the most important thing in my entire possession. If I can save one thing running out the door in a disaster, Pusheen will be it. I will even risk being killed to do it. I DO know how stupid that sounds, but she is literally like family to me.
The exact moment I ran into Pusheen the cat on the internet, my eyes got big and my heart melted. I was addicted to it to the point I even play the online game "dress Pusheen". I know it's made for freaking little girls and what not BUT it turns my crank OK.
When I am in a great deal of pain I hold onto her and think of her being a real kitty. This somehow lessens the pain and makes me happy. It's literally like magic. You see I have Fibromyalgia and it's literally like hell now and then. I can't even begin to describe the pain I feel at times.
On the other hand I have literally no excuse for having a tea party with all my stuffed Pusheen…

OK I Went Outside Are You Happy Now?

Outside is over rated. It's freaking hot out there and there is no Netflix as I don't want to use up all my mobile data sitting on a park bench.
I know - I know... I'm supposed to be looking at the freaking ducks in the pond or something. But they don't actually do much - they just kind of float there and expect you to feed them and shit.
It's also kind of peopley out here. That won't do at all. If I want to communicate to someone it will be on freaken Facebook not actually talking to someone. Dang what is this the dark ages?
Look how bright it is in this photo... Look at it... How am I expected to read my text messages and see the Instagram photos? We can send people to freaken Mars but we can't make a smart phone I can read in direct sunlight.
I got it. I will come back to the park at 1 am when almost all the people are done and it's dark out so I can see my screen. This way I can say "I went outside" and I only have to deal with some random sle…

So I'm Locked In A Padded Room LOL...

So I'm locked in a padded room but the left my phone so I'ma post it on my blog and on Instagram.
Actually this is our one elevator. It's bigger than the other one and has padding on it all the time in case someone moves in or out. It's a lot more easy to just lave it up than it is to put it up each time.
The only thing is for people who are not as steady on their feet there are no hand rails to hold onto as they are covered with the padding. So I don't really like it being there. I am also kind of shy in real life and don't like to go up to someone in charge and say "hay this is not a great thing, it needs to change".
Now if I could just get out a parody song of love in an elevator with the words love in a padded elevator instead - then I could do a really crappy music video in the thing in the middle of the night when I am kind of sure no one would come in on me... Hmmm could have worded that last line better...

I Enjoy The Hell Out Of Coffee

I have friends who tell me "coffee is so expensive don't waste your money on it". Well the thing is the coffee I drink if $9.99 for an entire months worth of drinking coffee all afternoon long. How is this a waste of money?
I get a lot of pleasure out of the coffee as well. It's not just the stimulation it gives as that is minimal after many years of drinking it literally ever day and many cups every day. It's the taste.
I am sure most people would say the same thing that enjoy coffee. It's at it's best on the first cup of the day just cooled down enough to not hurt my tong. I admit the other cups are slightly less enjoyable than the first of the day but they still rock.
Yes there is an addiction factor at play here, I am addicted to it and I admit that fully. But there are health benefits to it you can't ignore - so there...
Some people can have anxiety triggered by caffeine. I on the other hand will have an all day anxiety attack if I don't have any…

Postcard From Friends

Got a thoughtful card from some YouTube friends while they where enjoying a vacation in Florida. I am very much enjoying all the footage they shot and posted.

Some in my situation (being poor) are very angry when they see people enjoying the hell out of themselves. All I can say is they both work hard for their money and deserve to have fun.

Although I don't have much my needs are met and I have cable and internet. This is more than most in the world - so I count myself to be lucky as well :)

You can check them out here:

Reflecting On The 5 Year Anniversary Of Moms Death

So I was down to $23.71 and it is the five year anniversary of my Moms death. I felt very much like comfort food and blew $18 of it on a pizza. This fed me twice so not a terrible deal and hay it was delicious.
So now there is five bucks in the account until I get paid in 8 days. I can live with that as I have a lot more food than I need and a lot of coffee in the can.
So now that the fears of running out of food are crushed I was playing with a new app and liked it so I paid $1.99 to remove the ads. This was worth it to me as my God on a hockey stick there where a lot of ads and they were 40 second video ads for the most part. Being I am going to use the app often I paid it...
But yeah, five years Mom has been gone. Five long years. Also at the end of the month will be the end of five years of vlogging every single day. That in its self I did NOT think was going to happen as I did not actually go out of my way to do it.
The thing is, I feel like it was just a few months ago that Mom died…

Shaw Bluesky and Internet 150 Review

At the bottom on the right you will see my Shaw Cable Bluesky box. This is a type of cable box that allows you to "talk" to the remote and have it do things. Literally talk to it that is.
It's wonderful and have never failed to pick out what I was telling it to do. If I ask for movies the list comes up. If I ask for space channel it goes there. It's great.
The PVR allows you to record up to six TV hows at the same time or record five and watch one live. The box also allows you to pause live TV and in some cases start the show over if you cam in part way (not on all channels).
It also has Gateway so that you can be 1000 miles away and use the internet to record a TV show. With their app you can also watch the live TV shows you would have missed from any location. It does not seem to be able to stream your PVR though as some do.
On the downside the box only offers 500 GB of storage and well this is OK for someone like me who will be watching the PVR recordings 2 or 3 times…

Sad And Messy To OK And Clean

Seems I have a very strong desire to be in a clean environment. While I was still rather sick I ended up doing all the cleaning and it caused me to almost pass out a couple of times. Yet I kept doing it.
The best part is I used to be a very messy person back in the day when I was depressed and so on. Seems not long after they "fixed" my depression I ended up with the desire to keep it all clean.
I don't know why I just know as soon as I felt good about the world I then wanted it to be more ordered and structured.
This came at a price though, I used to be rather better at art and poetry in the day albeit dark and moody at the time. Now it's more structured and lest involved than it used to be.
It's a good trade off though because if I kept on that path I may not have been here right now. I was getting darker and darker.
The meds are only a part of it, as they make it more easy to get out of the cycle of thinking that kept me in the darkness (my old friend). Then with t…

The Ultimate Queen Playlist

1 Fat Bottomed Girls
2 Radio Ga Ga
3 Another One Bites The Dust
4 Crazy Litle Thing Called Love
5 Under Pressure
6 Killer Queen
7 You're My Best Friend
8 Bicycle Race
9 Save Me
10 A Kind Of Magic
11 I Want It All
12 I Want To Break Free
13 I'm Going Slightly Mad
14 The Show Must Go On
15 Who Wants To Live Forever
16 Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody

I Wish I Had Whiskey Playlist

1 Divine - You Think You're A Man
2 Johnny Cash - Hurt
3 Slade - Run Runaway
4 Shoot Your Shot - Divine
5 Peter Gabriel - Games Without Frontiers
6 David Bowie - Heroes
7 Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here
8 Jimmy Somerville - Smalltown Boy Reprise
9 Nouela - The Sound of Silence
10 Johnny Cash - God's Gonna Cut You Down

Don't Know This Ya Don't Know Rock Playlist

1 Fleetwood Mac - The Chain
2 Eric Clapton - Layla
3 Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here
4 Kansas - Carry On Wayward Son
5 Ram Jam - Black Betty
6 The Animals - The House of the Rising
7 Santana - Smooth ft. Rob Thomas
8 Toto - Africa
9 Rush - Tom Sawyer
10 AC/DC - You Shook Me All Night Long
11 Guns N' Roses - Paradise City
12 Steppenwolf - Magic Carpet Ride
13 Cream - Sunshine Of Your Love
14 Free - All Right Now
15 Lynyrd Skynyrd - Sweet Home Alabama
16 The Moody Blues - Nights In White Satin
17 Procol Harum - A Whiter Shade Of Pale
18 Lou Reed - Walk On The Wild Side
19 Norman Greenbaum - Spirit In The Sky
20 Mungo Jerry - In The Summertime
21 Simon & Garfunkel - Mrs. Robinson
22 George Harrison - My Sweet Lord
23 Boston - More than A Feeling
24 Starship - We Built This City
25 Journey - Dont Stop Believing
26 Blue Oyster Cult - (Don't Fear) The Reaper
27 Golden Earring - Twilight Zone
28 Meat Loaf - Two Out Of Three Ain't Bad
29 Eagles - The Long Run
30 Norwegian Wood - The Beatles

And The Dryer Settings

Less dry: for when you don't mind it to get moldy...

Very dry: For when you actually don't want damp clothing out of the dryer.

Castor Oil Unclogged Me Real Good Like

Directions on the bottle are "take 2 to 4 tbs". Well I was plugged good so I took 2 and though "lets see how that does". WELL hours of being on the toilet later and having the feeling I pooped my lungs out, there was no blockage no more.
All I can say is natural works now and then rather than some chemical crap that takes all day - this took about an hour.
God help anyone who takes 4 tbs...

YouTube Is Trying To Tell Me Something

Hay there YouTube, you trying to tell me something? This was #3 on my recommended videos the other day. Sometimes the universe just makes you laugh your ass off...

No Riding Your Bike In The Mall Hay?

So we actually live in a world where people think it's a good idea to go into a wall with their bike or skateboard or their dog. The one I like the best is the bicycles part. Who would ride their bike threw the mall?
OH WAIT. I have actually seen on no less than 6 occasions ADULTS riding a bike up and down the isles of Wally World. So never mind.
This sign does NOT way I can't bring a gimp in on a leash though. Sooo...

Tested My Lexar 633X Micro-SD Card

OK in October I will be getting a new phone, an LG G6. This is for that phone. I have tested it and it works very well. I tested the speed read and wright to within 5% of what they claim it will do. Being that my computer is a bit old that could be the reason it's slightly slower.
In any event I won't need it to be this fast as I won't be taking 4K video any time soon and well the photo app won't cycle fast enough to top out the wright speed any time soon.
I paid $43.95 for this (and some tax). the bummer of it is the 128gb one came on sail the NEXT day after this one shipped for only $4 more than I paid for this one.
The price of memory cards in the first place is kind of all over the place on Amazon at best. But I knew if I waited long enough it would not be $59 any more and when it hit $44 I ordered it.

Replacing The Draw String In My Sweats

So this here is paracord. It's the stuff I got at the Dollar Tree. Like 2 bundles of 100 foot each. So I have low expectations. BUT they do keep my pants up. See my sweats have these cotton rope draw strings in them and they fail after a while, so I pull these threw them to get a better hold on things as it where.
I have 2 left that I need to do these with. I also now and then forget to tie them before I wash them and out comes the cord. This happened last time to 2 pairs of sweats. I have this old wire coat hanger for that that I bent up to put inside the waistband then pull the cord threw. It works better I think than other ways of doing it.
What I really hate is the kind that is looped threw and sown in the back. These WILL fail and come out one day. They are also impossible to tie proper as they are literally a loop in front and not two ends to tie. There is also the fact that most of the time the place the sting goes does NOT pass threw the back seam thus you have to get creati…

Cooking On The SAID Program

Is it getting near the end of the month and them disability payments from the Saskatchewan Government running low? This is a quick and easy meal to prepare. All you need is a roll of paper towel and a roasting pan. Put the towel and a little cooking oil in the pan and bake at 350 for 30 minutes. You have a meal full of fiber to keep you going until the next day. After all, who can afford to eat fresh veggies and meat all month long on what we get? Food keeps going up and up. It's literally a little more each trip to the store. Yet the benefits stay the same and in many cases in the past while they went down. Kind of got to wonder how many MLA's have been to the food bank in the last while? Can't bitch too much though, under the NDP I was starving in the dark before the Sask Party came with the SAID program. Oh and as for clothing yourself... 6 months of being in debt to the Government will get you 2 maybe 3 outfits to wear. WOOT.

It's All Gone Wrong For This Door

You know it's all gone horribly wrong when this happens. See the bracing for the door should be on the inside and it should be leaning the other way. I'm left wondering if it was the wind, coming home drunk or anger youth that made this happen. BTW the actual most likely scenario is that it was open (up) and the springs let go and down it came.
Also kind of wondering what that poster used to say. You are not actually aloud to leave posters up on pols like that in Moose Jaw - BUT there will never be a day when the bylaw enforcement person comes and gives someone a ticket over it - so up go the posters and they never come down. Kind of have to wonder about the logic of needing permission to put up a lost cat poster though.

My Bestest Art Ever LOL...

This is art on a level that you might actually get hurt or killed if you attempt it at home - so please do not try to replicate my results... HAHAHA. Just doing some mixed media stuff. Did them by hand and then coloured on the PC.