Showing posts from June, 2019


Dancing Queen
Mamma Mia
Take a Chance on Me
Happy New Year
Thank You for the Music
The Winner Takes It All
Ring Ring
Super Trouper
Money, Money, Money
Does Your Mother Know
Summer Night City
Andante, Andante
One of Us
Name of the Game
So Long
Intermezzo No. 1
Head Over Heels
Knowing Me Knowing You
Nina, Pretty Ballerina
When All is Said and Done


Bangarang – Skrillex
Kill Everybody – Skrillex
Dragula Rob Zombie
Breakn’ a Sweat – Skrillex & The Doors
Freaks – Timmy Trumpet
Make it Bun Dem – Skrillex & Damian Marley
You Spin Me round (Like a Record) – Dead or Alive
First of the Year (Equinox) – Skrillex
Breathe – Prodigy
Roc N’ Roll (Will Take You to the Mountain) – Skrillex
Heathens – Twenty One Pilots
Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites – Skrillex
Stressed Out – Twenty One Pilots
Purple Lamborghini – Skrillex & Rick Ross
Toxicity – System of a Down
Try it Out – Skrillex
Smooth Criminal – Alien Ant Farm
Kyoto – Skrillex
Alone – Marshmello
Ragga Bomb – Skrillex
Turn Down for What – DJ Snake & Lil Jon
Ruffneck (Full Flux) – Skrillex
Sex and I Know It – LMFAO
Ease My Mind – Skrillex
Jump Around – House of Pain


Amazing Grace – LeAnne Rimes
What’s Up – 4 Non Blondes
Over the Rainbow – Israel Kamakawiwo’ole
Bridge Over Troubled Water – LeAnn Rimes
Angel – Sarah McLachlan
The Rose – LeAnn Rimes
I Will Always Love You – Whitney Houston
How Do I Live – LeAnn Rimes
If You Could Read My Mind – Gordon Lightfoot
On The Side of Angels – LeAnn Rimes
When You Say Nothing At All – Alison Kruss
Bring Me To Life – Evanescence
Need You Now – Lady Antebellum
I Want It That Way – Backstreet Boys
From This Moment On – Shania Twain
Wherever You Will Go – The Calling
Ten Thousand Angels Cried – LeAnne Rimes
Grandpa (Tell Me ‘Bout the Good Old Days) – The Judds
Love Me Like You Do – Ellie Goulding
Unchained Melody – LeAnn Rimes
I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing – Aerosmith
You’re Still the One – Shania Twain
Jesus, Take the Wheel – Carri Underwood
Man! I Feel Like a Woman – Shania Twain


Spirit in the Sky – Norman Greenbaum
My Sweet Lord – George Harrison
Rebel Yell – Billy Idol
Gimme Shelter – The Rolling Stones
Carry on Wayward Sone – Kansas
Patience – Guns N’ Roses
You Pint Me Round (Like a Record) – Dead or Alive
Night Moves – Bob Seager & the Silver Bullet Band
Zombie – The Cranberries
Wish You Were Here – Pink Floyd
Take on Me – a-ha
Paint it, Black – The Rolling Stones
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics
Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses
Black Betty – Ram Jam
What’s Up? – 4 Non Blondes
A Rose with No Name – America
Africa – Toto
Paradise City – Guns N’ Roses
Copperhead Road – Steve Earle
Have You Seen the Rain – C.C.R.
Hold the Line – Toto
Rocket Man – Elton John
Take Me Home, Country Roads – John Denver


So I'm sitting here with a deep desire to make chili and thinking how I literally can't afford the stuff that goes into it. I mean it's expensive to get the meat and the peppers and so on. By the time I get it all it will be $20 for sure and I just don't have that to spend on myself at the moment - I already spent too much on myself.
But... I am reminded of a recent dream I had that I had won $60,000,000 in the lotto Max and got a house with a big ass TV and lots of recliners so I could have movie nights with my friends.
Also in this dream house was a large room with a vast amount of Pusheen stuffed toys in it. Then there was a well stocked bar in the TV room with all kinds of top end whisky and bourbon.
Seems I have been contaminated with the idea that things make you happy and not yourself making you happy.


So I talked to the lady from the hospital about my case. She said the thing sticking out of the would is normal and what they do sometimes - so that's all cool. Now there is just the matter of a review of what happened to me in day surgery after the procedure.
 If you don't know, I was in the Dr. F.H. Wigmore hospital here in Moose Jaw on the morning of June 11, 2019 to get a laparoscopic hernia repair. This is the biggest procedure I've ever had done.
In any event, I am quite resistant to pain medication and had NOT told the doctor this ahead of time - so part of it is on me.
So after I was taken to a room to get dressed I was unaware of just how much pain I was going to be in when I moved. At this time the nurse or aid (don't know witch) told me to get dressed and open the door when I was done. She then left the room.
Well the moment I tried to get up I started to cry out in pain. It was in fact the the worst pain of my entire life. It was level 10 the entire time I was …


Well that went well NOT. I was hoping to be down a little at least. BUT I was bad AGAIN. This entire year is a wright-off to say the least for the weight loss.
I'm up 21.2 lbs in total for the year so far (Week 26). At one shinning moment I was down 150+ lbs now it's 124.6 in total.
But there is always tomorrow. I just need to get my head right and stop being impulsive with crap like processed food, chips, pop and ice cream.
Back to the struggle I go.


So I had a little fun. I has sushi and whisky. I also ordered a 12 pack of 3mm chains that are 30 inches long. Then I ordered 2 identical pentagram pendants, one for me and one for my friend. The chains that come with these things are always to short for either of us - so thus the chains and I'll have extras if something goes wrong or I find some other shiny thing to get.
So because of the fun and the orders I'm down to like $45 left in the back after the rent comes out and my subscriptions are paid for. Oh well, this is life. I was only going to have $100 left over anyway as I owe the other Dave $70 to give to his Mom (she picked up the expensive pain meds for me).
So not going to be having much fun this month to say the least. Might put a few things like coffee and fries on the credit card for next month. This will put me a bit short for 2 months not just 1, but at least I'll have cash if I need a cab ride or something.
to conclude, I probobly should not have ordered that a…






Up at 4:30 am today to take a piddle. I was up all night doing this. Every hour I got up and peed. The smokies I had yesterday did me in I guess. So I just got up and got at it at 4:30 am.
At least the last 2 weeks I have been up early and not sleeping till 11am or more. This is the only good side effect from the surgery I had - it reset my sleep pattern.
In any event, last night was one of the best sunsets I have seen in years. It was simply amazing.
Now it's 7:07 am and I am hungry. I am going to get that last bit of bean mix I did not eat the other day out of the fridge and watch some TV while I eat it. Later I'll cook been mix for the rest of the day.
The bean mix (3 meals) is: 2 large cans of beans - 1 large can of diced tomatoes - Italian seasoning to taste - 2 cups of frozen vegetables (still frozen). Mix in a pot and cook till you think it's cone. It's easy to over cook on the stove. I normally do 2 days worth in the slow cooker (2 hours on high) but I'm limite…

Means Something To Me PlayList

Wind of Change – Scorpions
House of the Rising Sun – BTO
Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas
Mr. Crowley – Ozzy Osbourne
Dream On – Aerosmith
The Sound of Silence – Disturbed
In the End – Linkin Park
Hurt – Johnny Cash
Stairway to Heaven – Led Zeppelin
Africa – Toto
Psychosocial – Slipknot
Nightmare – Avenge Sevenfold
Whiskey in the Jar – Metallica
The Devil in I – Slipknot
Engel – Rammstein
Heathens – Twenty-One Pilots

Heavy PlayList

The Devil in I – Slipknot
Nightmare – Avenge Sevenfold
Rebel Yell – Dope
Bodies – Drowning Pool
Sex Machine – Dope
You’re Going Down – Sick Puppies
In the End – Linkin Park
Sulfer – Slipknot
Killing in the Name – Rage Against the Machine
Violent Pornography – System of a Down
Dead Memories – Slipknot
Psychosocial – Slipknot
Down with the Sickness – Disturbed
The Red – Chevelle
Hail to the King – Avenge Sevenfold
Walk – Pantera
Dragula – Rob Zombie

Hell Yes PlayList

MacArthur Park – Richard Harris
Wind of Change – Scorpions
Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas
Dream On – Aerosmith
Zombie – The Cranberries
Africa – Toto
Patience – Guns N’ Roses
The Devil in I – Slipknot
Another One Bites the Dust – Queen
Another Brick in the Wall – Pink Floyd
Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics
The Unforgiven – Metallica
Dragula – Rob Zombie
November Rain – Guns N’ Roses
Kickstart My Heart – Motley Crue
Renegade – Styx
Devils Song – Big Pig
Venus in Furs – The Velvet Underground
In Hell I’ll Be in Good Company – The Dead South
You Spin Me Round – Dead or Alive
The Sound of Silence – Disturbed
B.Y.O.B. – System of a Down
Cry Little Sister – Marilyn Manson
Numb – Linkin Park
The End – The Doors

Hippy PlayList

Twist and Shout – The Beatles
Stand by Me – Ben E. King
Like a Rolling Stone – Bob Dylan
These Boots are Made for Walking – Nancy Sinatra
You’ve Got to Hide Your Love Away – The Beatles
I’m a Believer – The Monkees
For What It’s Worth – Buffalo Springfield
Good Vibrations – The Beach Boys
Imagine – John Lennon
Over the Rainbow – Israel Kamakawiwo’ole
San Francisco (Be Sure to Wear Flowers in Your Hair) – Scott McKenzie
Cat’s in the Cradle – Harry Chapin
Piano Man – Billy Joel
Wish You Were Here – Pink Floyd
She’s Always a Woman – Billy Joel
Let it Be – The Beatles

Electro PlayList

Radioactive – Kraftwerk
The Robots – Kraftwerk
The Man Machine – Kraftwerk
This Side of the Border – Rational Youth
No More and No Less – Rational Youth
In Your Eyes – Rational Youth
Holiday in Bangkok – Rational Youth
Western Man – Rational Youth
In the Future – Rational Youth
Burn the Night Away – Rational Youth
Le Meilleur Des Mondes – Rational Youth
To the Goddess Electricity – Rational Youth
City of Night – Rational Youth
Beware the Fly – Rational Youth
Freeze – Rational Youth
Close to Nature – Rational Youth

6 AM Having Coffee PlayList

Home Sweet Home – Motley Crue
Take on Me – a-ha
Simple Man – Lynyrd Skynyrd
November Rain – Guns N’ Roses
Runnin’ With the Devil – Van Halen
18 And Life – Skid Row
Enter Sandman – Metallica
Stairway to Heaven – Led Zeppelin
Wind of Change – Scorpions
Wanted Dead or Alive – Bon Jovi
Night Moves – Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band
High Enough – Damn Yankees
Old Time Rock & Roll - Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band
Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses
Livin’ On A Prayer – Bon Jovi
Don’t Know What You Got (Till It’s Gone) – Cinderella
Motivation – T.I.
Copperhead Road – Steve Earle
Hysteria – Def Leppard
Paradise City – Guns N’ Roses
6 Foot 7 Foot – Lil Wayne
Round and Round – Ratt
Rainbow in the Dark – Dio


So normally I have this USB card reader in this USB extension cable. Today instead of plugging the passport drive into the front of the PC I plugged it into the extension. Well it lit the light up, but did not actually see the drive. For a moment I though "how can it be dead, I only use it once a month for 10 minutes". Then I plugged it into the front of the PC and it worked fine. So I'm guessing there is a lot of loss in the cable. It works quite fine for the card reader and none of the thousands of photos I've transferred with it where scrambled. But I guess there is just enough loss to not properly power the drive. I have to say though, it was the lowest priced one on the shelf when I got it one day at Staples. No idea what the brand is even - it does not say on it.

Smokies on a Bun Today

Having my treat day today instead of Thursday, just because. I'm munching into Smokies on a bun with mustard and sriracha. The smokies are Jalapeno and Cheddar. 3 of them seems to be filling me up rather well at the moment. Don't know if I will eat all 12 of the things in 1 day. I do love them. Was going to get sauerkraut with them, but it was just too much. I spent $15 on this total and they where on sale - so not something I normally eat. Still that's less than 1 meal out someplace - and I get to feed 3 or 4 times on it.


I had a laparoscopic hernia repair on June 11, 2019. When I have my follow up I have to mention that when I stand up there is a bump where the repair was done. This is 2 weeks after the surgery that I'm noticing it. I am hoping to God it's not a failure in the repair but some thing that should be there. There is nothing on the other side like that though, so I have to wonder.  Something left in the wound I got no idea what the hell it is or why it's there. I'm thinking perhaps it was holding something inside. It seems to be that dissolving stitch thing they use inside you. It's only a guess though - I got not idea - I don't know much about medical stuff.  A closeup of the bit sticking out of under the staples. The worst looking of the wounds. Just because there is a big ass bruise around it. The others are mostly clear of discoloration and look rather good - hard to tell there was a cut there. Very little scaring will be visible - they did a nice job of that at le…


Thank GOD I had some donations from friends this month or next month I'd have been flat broke. So at least now I can take a cab if I need it next month. With luck the same stuff that went wrong this month does not happen.
This month I had $60 in bad rides and $70 in medication that was not covered by my plan. So I was toasted money wise. I also had a few minor expenses I was not expecting to have. It all added up to me being in the hole (on the credit card).
This months Food bill is going to be about $68 and will be left on the card for a month. I should be back to normal  after July. At least I hope I am.
I am told as well I'm being sent a bottle of whisky to enjoy. This is a happy thing. I might actually get stupid and get a bottle of my old stand by on Thursday just because. It's $22.13 right now - so it's less than normal and while it's so low I might get one - just to have a bender after all the stuff that went wrong this month.
As well this is GST month and on th…


Shout at the Devil – Motley Crue
Dream On – Aerosmith
Dragula – Rob Zombie
Kickstart My Heart – Motley Crue
For Whom the Bell Tolls – Metallica
Whiskey in the Jar – Metallica
Dr. Feelgood – Motley Crue
Nightrain – Guns N’ Roses
Girls, Girls, Girls – Motley Crue
Don’t Cry – Guns N’ Roses
Wild Side – Motley Crue
You Should Be Mine – Guns N’ Roses
Smokin’ in the Boys Room – Motley Crue
Metal Health (Band Your Head) – Quit Riot
Red Hot – Motley Crue
Enter Sandman – Metallica
Helter Skelter – Motley Crue
Runnin’ With the Devil – Van Halen


Against the Wind – Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band
Dream On – Aerosmith
Patience – Guns N’ Roses
Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas
My Sweet Lord – George Harrison
November Rain – Guns N’ Roses
Simple Man Lynyrd Skynyrd
Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door – Guns N’ Roses
Here Without You – 3 Doors Down
Ventura Highway – America
Night Moves - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band
Have You Seen the Rain – C.C.R.
Like a Rock - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band
Paradise City – Guns N’ Roses
Turn the Page - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band
Copperhead Road – Steve Earle
Still the Same - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band
Wanted Dead or Alive – Bon Jovi
Paint It Black – The Rolling Stones
Sweet Child O’ Mine – Guns N’ Roses
Nothing Else Matters – Metallica
Lyin’ Eyes – Eagles
Mainstreet - Bob Seager & The Silver Bullet Band
Midtnight Rider – The Allman Brothers Band
Hurt – Johnny Cash



My Urologist Sucks

Kind of share my urologist can't find his ass with both hands. Left nut is killing me again. How is it 4 different doctors in this town can't find a 2.5 mm cyst? He knows it's there he saw the fucking report from the ultrasound. Comes off saying he doesn't know why its hurting, says its stress related. So I have to live with this pain for the rest of my life because I live in a city full of incompetent doctors. Trust me, you can ask other people here what they think of the doctors. Meanwhile, this hurts so bad it's making me nauseous. Jesus!


If I get 10 more good years I will be lucky. I'm hoping to drop dead just when I'm 64 so I don't have to bother with the vast amount of effort it will take to move from Sask disability to the federal old age system and an entirely new system of drug and medical coverage. I'm almost a plant now, can't imagine at 65 doing all that paperwork.
Then again a very close friend and I have talked about after "10 good years" we could just check out in a blaze of glory. Ya know get drunk and stoned for days then just take too much and be found a by a maid in a motel or something.
All jokes aside (I know that was an evil one), if I ever hear the words "cancer or dementia" I'm freaking out of here. No joke - just out of here. Sure I'll fight cancer if I have a chance, but if it's stage 4 and no hope - off I go into the gentle night.
I only wish that the right to assisted suicide here in Canada was expanded to a directive that one could have filed wi…


I've been blocked on Facebook for a lot of reasons. Here are some of them:

• Telling someone sexual assault is not a joke.
• Using the "F word" too much - this came from someone who constantly posted photos of her sex toys.
• Because "I'm starting to like you more than my husband so I have to block you".
• Really a LOT of people because I think Trump is the worst man for the job.
• For voting Liberal in the Saskatchewan and federal elections.
• For saying "who cares, you knew what I meant" when someone tried to correct my spelling.
• For posting too many photos.
• For sharing a persons PUBLIC post.
• For being openly pansexual and/or fluid gender.
• For liking pineapple on a pizza.
• For insisting there is proof the world round, not flat.
• For liking cats.
• For collecting Pusheen toys and posting photos of them.
• For saying everyone should have the same rights, not special rights (they told me they where calling the RCMP on me).
• For sharing a video of a dra…

PHOTO BLOG 6-21-2019

Paint splatter.  ER parking lot at the Moose Jaw hospital.  Typical cloudy day.  Me sitting in the dark about to start reading. My gel-pen don't work to well, but it's got Pusheen on it.


Still dealing with the aftermath of my surgery. I still maintain I got nothing for pain management when I was in the hospital. If they did give me any, it was enough for a small child only, and not for a very large adult.
 When I was told to get dressed to go home (the same day) I was crying out in pain every time I moved. The effort to get dressed and into the van was monumental.
I've looked back at the video I posted the same day - I was shaking and white the bandage you see below.  It's been 11 days and I'm still in a bit of pain.
I've had 3 other surgery's in the past and I have not needed pain management after any of them - just the same day of the operation did I need something. So obviously this was a LOT bigger deal than before.
I don't know what the hell it is with the hospital in Moose Jaw (and doctors) not wanting to give you pain meds that actually kill pain, but it's extremely common. Many people I know have had the same issue.
I don…