Monday, November 19, 2012

2 1/2 years to die

For years Mom told us she could stop smoking but she did not believe it would kill her. After many many years she was put on Oxygen because of it. She quit smoking but it was way too late. For 2 1/2 years (the end of her days) I watched her drift away from me. The cancer she had from smoking taking a small bit of Mom from me every single day. In the end, the last few months, it was so hard just to see her. It was not the person I knew and in the end she did not know me. At the start of this she was full of life and a healthy size. Then at death she was 80lbs. It took so long and life was so hard for her for years. I am not telling you what to do. I am just telling you what happened to someone I loved more than my own life.

Hugs - Dave.

Well that looks spiffy

Abandoning my 2 profiles on the site (MyMooseJaw and AxeMoose) Can't upload and have not been able to in over a year now. I am not alone in this to say the least. Several people I know from there have emailed asking if I knew when the site would be back up and running. I for one do not think it is worth the wait. I have filtered out video.ca on my 2 emails that are linked to the accounts over there. No more of it will come to my inbox. The video from MyMooseJaw that was top of the featured video list has been spammed into the dark ages by many accounts on the site. This is obviously a bot set up to do so. If the attack was on me it is for not, as I don't give a shit and have not given a shit about the site in a year. The contact form does not work and I can't get hold of the staff. If you are staff and see this - don't send email from the site as it will not get to me (it will be deleted from server as per filter).

The Video.ca logo and name are used in video and text as commentary on the state of why I have long abandoned the site.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

The most over used word on the net

Oh man... All this "Podo" shot on YT... If you’re too stupid to troll someone well, just use that word and you get attention. Too bad the word Pedophile has lost all meaning on the internet. Too many tards tossing it out every single time they don't like someone. So now if you want to warn someone about a real threat you will most likely be ignored because these fools have over used the word.

Now because of the foolish attempt to destroy people names on the internet, the real monsters run free looking for children. They are safe in the knowledge that so many people don’t react to the word now. Most of the trolls say they hunt “prdos” when in reality they have no hope of even knowing that the term means to someone who has been affected by the creatures this word really refers to.

The shame of the modern age is how often this word is used. Every single day some fool will toss it out there, many times more than once. Now we have forums for posting “pedo alerts” on all the nasty people you don’t agree with. If you don’t like them or they differ in opinion from you just call them a pedo. No need for proof as the weak minded will never need proof.

Chat rooms full of monsters and people who do nothing but watch naked kids on YouTube get away with it. The outspoken or people of the GLBTQ rainbow get labelled for the sake of hate. No one will back it up and if they do it’s with a web site where the feeble minded post “warnings” instead of a government site. For a time people might listen but then they lose interest and more on to the next flash of drama on the net. All the while the monsters are unseen and unheard. Waiting and stalking their next victim.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Time to go dark...

The hurt of losings someone just never goes away. Ever time I think I am past the point of crying it comes back. Remember all the good times just makes you miss them more some days. All the little things like watching the news with her, or cooking for her. I wish this would just stop... But then I would be dead inside if it did. So I live with the pain and go on to have joy fill my day tomorrow. But for tonight I am going to lie in the dark and hide the tears...

Friday, November 9, 2012

OMG... Sigh...

Snow storm - time for a bike ride... There is no hope for humanity I think...

Monday, November 5, 2012

Thinking out loud

So we open a web site for video. We get a cool name and some young girls to promote it. But we must control all content 100%. That way we can be god. And if someone outside our little bubble is different in thinking we can do videos on them. As well no sock accounts, just the one I have. I can use the ban hammer to keep them in line. I will be a hero! Praise God this is his will after all.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

The Right To Die

So I been reading a lot about the right to die. In Canada we are starting to move closer to demanding the right from out government. In a small about of countries in the world it is in place right now. The religious folks will say that it's a sin. I have to say, how can it be?

When a person has no hope of being better and the quality of life is to a point that there is noting left but suffering, I feel they have the right to ask for death. I do not think this right should be given lightly and a quick but educated decision should be reached by a board of doctors on a case by case bases.

In special cases where the person has not the capacity to understand what is going on, I am very much at a loss as to what should be done. We have a world famous example of that in Saskatchewan where a man put his daughter to death to end her suffering. He spent some time in jail and his life was forever scared in the public eye. Ozzy Osborn did a song about him by the way.

I for one do not want to die like my mother did. A lingering death a decay over a long time is not an option to me. My fondest prayer is to do out fast with as little suffering as possible and with my mind intact. I often wonder if I would chose to end my own life if I was in her shoes. I am 50% certain I would want it to end. But 50% of me also thinks that I would fight to the last drop of life.

I have spent years thinking about this topic and I have no solution other than to say, I think people should have the choice to get medical help in ending their lives in certain circumstances.

There are many who think all life is sacred and that if God wills you to suffer then you must do so or face his wrath. I think that God is love and does not want us to spend years in pain that we can not tolerate.

I just do not know...