Thursday, February 21, 2013

Time To Vent

There is something wrong with me and I can guess and others have guessed but I don't know what... They don't seem interested in finding it out. There are a hell of a lot of autoimmune dysfunctions that can cause what I feel - no testing. Got a test for lupus but they are not accurate and you can do 15 years before it is positive. My dad was sent home from Regina hospital and died in the car beside me as I was taking him home. They ignored him to death. My mother was told for years that she had a chest infection when it was cancer. The cancer doctor told us this was the case. She up and said they dropped the ball on this one. So she was ignored to death... Now it's my turn. I can live with it and just hope that when the pain gets out of hand more than it does now they give me something better. For now I have to take too many of them to make it so I can sleep when the pain is up high. Your not supposed to take as much as I do - but I have to or I will be in pain for days with no relief at all. It's amazing how bad things are here. A lot of Americans look to us for the answer but we are by far not the answer...

Saturday, February 16, 2013

How Not To Recycle

Ok this is the south hill recycling center. The only one we have at this moment as the one that used to be by the crushed can is still not relocated. All people have to do is push the button and feed it into the machine. Think they can handle that? Nope... That would be a task for someone who actually cares to take care of the planet. Not a job for a lazy bastard who just drops it off and leaves. Why bother doing this if your not going to do it right? After all you special.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Stuffed Animals...

 Jasmine My Cow...
 Moms Bear...
 Sofa Dog...
 Morbidly Obese Sock Monkey
Little Dog...
Sock Monkey and Rabbit...

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Boston Pizza FTW

 Blue Cheese Bacon Sirloin Burger.
Cheese Cake with Chocolate and Carmel Drizzle.

Had a feed at Boston Pizza in Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan, Canada. Price was $26 total. The best food I have had in a while to say the least. The coffee was OK only but the burger and the cheese cake where outstanding to day the least. In fact it's one of the best cheese cakes I have had in ages. I would love to have a mix of these toppings and Kahlua on it - that would be even better.

Our server was very nice to us and I downright forgot to tip... Sigh... The other Dave was so chatty as always (LOL) and she talked with us for some time. Good thing is was not busy at the time. But as we where about to take off the people where streaming in. I don't like noisy places so we got out just in time I think. All in all it was a memorable dinner and superb food.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

Of God, Death and Tears

I was watching Gran Torino and it comes to the part where he is told he has cancer. I started to cry thinking of the long and sad death of my Mother. I said to God, “why do you allow so many terrible things”. I think of children with cancer, birth defects that disable for life and war. I think how much I have and how little most of the world has. I think how the money we have in the west could feed the world. I ask, “Are you blind or are you not even there”. The pain of loss still pushes me down in the dirt. The pain of all that is wrong in this world rises me up in anger. I want to grab some rich guy and beat him in the face and say, “why do you have all this when children in your own city are hungry”? I ask myself, “Why when you are extra money do you do for yourself and not for others”?

I have no answer to any of these questions but the last. I am selfish and I will justify my actions just like everyone else does. I think of God and I feel a warm hand on my left shoulder. God is not of this world he is of the next. We are of this world and we are the ones that are supposed to be helping each other. We are the ones that stand beside the dying and the sick. We do it for our reasons and in the name of God. In the end we are selfish and even when in the name of God, we do it for us in reality.

I know God is there, I have felt him and I have seen his hand work wonders. But he will not stop the pain of this world that is our job. We are the ones that go to war even when we do it in his name. We are the ones that feed the poor even if we do it in his name. We are the ones that steal and kill and we are the ones that protect and serve. God is a light that we look to for inspiration. To quote Babylon 5, “We are grey we stand between the light and the dark”. To expand on that, “we are the ones that chose our path”.

We all need to shed tears and we all need to yell at God and ask why. The answer can only come from inside however. For in our pain we do not hear the gentle whisper of Gods voice. All we hear is the torrent of our pain. So he uses others to show us the path. It is our job to pick that path. And it is our task to know we will always think of ourselves first.

When Mom was sick and I went to see her every day I told myself it was for her but half of the task was for me. I could not let a day pass that I did not have her in it. I needed her as much if not more than she needed me. In the end when she lay was close to death and it would come any moment, I was there because I did not want her to die alone. I was also there to close the chapter of my life that was her slow death.

I do not know if the pain will ever end but for now it will come back now and then and I will cry.

Peace, Dave...

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Quality comment NOT LOL...

Why be mad at pointless people with pointless lives saying pointless things. Better to get a laugh out of it and move on to something more substantial. I did give him a chance with his videos but unsubed after a month. He just could not hold my interest and it seems that only 1 person ever comments on his vids. The Quig is a great guy and I don't know why he is bothering with this fellow. Oh well I am sure most people on the tubes don't know why I bother watching the stuff I love and why people bother to watch me. In the end it's all down to community, that is to say good people with good intentions. There are a hell of a lot of good people on the tubes, just not this lonely fellow.

I do just have to think, by the time you get to the age of this fellow - why are you still bitter and trying to prove your so called worth over that of others? It is something to pity when someone is so bitter. I pointed out his comment on the next video and after he said he had unsubed, he left 7 childish comments that I removed. I tell you if you have to point out my size you don't have much going on for you. To not see the humor in the other video is also to not get any of what I said.

I don't get mad, but I will take the time to prove a point or to have fun with something like the comment above. Oh well lets all send some positive vibes his way, as he seems to deeply need them. Anyone who trolls at his age is in need of something in their life. To go to the bother of trolling me on my tag channel as well after I block the fellow for 7 downright bitter comments, is to say, "look at me - I need your attention badly".

So why am I even bothering to post this? To show the point of how sad a person needs to be to post comments like this one. Moto has it on the button with his comment back to him. Oh well... Another day another sad person to pity. In a few days however I won't remember this at all. I bet he remembers me for years to come though. They always do...

Sunday, February 3, 2013

And The Winner Is?

 Bad parking part 1 - Park right where it tells you no parking.
Bad parking part 2 - after you leave the no parking zone use the stores garbage that they pay to have removed for your own junk. Your my new hero for being so selfish. Way to go you win a gold star and are promoted to ass hat of the week.