Wednesday, June 29, 2016

The Princess Lost - A Story Of Mental Illness

So princess replied to someones comment on a video I posted years ago. He refers to what I said in it in a negative light. So think about this, unless he literally goes threw all of my videos (2,800 of them) now and then to do this - he would have to have taken notes to refer to and go back to in order to do this. Wow can you literally imagine taking this much time out of your life to do something that literally is of no matter to anyone at all? How much energy and how much of his life he has spent on just this kind of thing.
I can't imagine spending literally ever waking hour of every last day on hating people. How tragic. How sad. What a loss of a human life this is. Just can't seem to wrap my head around wanting to spend my entire life on a meaningless waste of time and energy. In the end to die and to have left nothing of myself behind that matters in the least. How tragic. When he dies, he will be lost. When we die, we will be remembered. There is at least that for us.
Not to mention the lack on intellect that leads so many people to realise it's him right away with yet another sock account to hide behind. Trying to look like many people when in reality it is obvious it is only one person. I wonder if he actually knows who he is? Or is it that he is lost to the madness and nothing is left of him.
11 years spent every last day all day not working, not living, not accomplishing anything at all. Just wasted time and energy. It is as sad a thing as I can imagine. The fact that he is literally a coward that hides in the shadow behind a keyboard and never shows himself as well. Think about how much of a pussy you have to be. Think of how scared of the world you would be. The terror of actually entering the world and encountering people. Instead to spend an entire life of meaningless cowardly stalking.
To be lost in a world of hurt and anger and to never have the pleasure of love or respect from any living thing. It is unimaginable to me. I don't want to seem obsessed, but the depth of this tragic being is beyond my ability to express. And all because he is too afraid of what others think of him. To much of a coward to show who he is and to express his true nature to others. All there is of him is a show - a play - a pretending, never a person.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Weight Loss Chart June 25, 2016 - David Nicholson (AxeMoose)

DATE

Mar 22, 2016
Mar 28, 2016
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 30, 2016
May 6, 2016
May 13, 2016
May 20, 2016
May 27, 2016
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 10, 2016
June 17, 2016
June 24, 2016
KG

211.3
209.2
209.6
210.1
209.1
203.7
203.7
206.4
202.8
202.1
203.1
200.9
201.9
198.7
LBS

465.0 #1
460.2
461.2
462.2
460.0
448.2 #2
448.2
454.2
446.2
444.8
447.0
442.0
444.2
437.2 #3
UP or DOWN (lbs)

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-4.8
+1.0
+1.0
-2.2
-11.8
No change
+6 pizza pig out
-8
-1.4
+2.2 Pizza again
-5
+2.2 Pasta Pig Out
-7

1: -16.8 (5 Weeks)
2: -4 (8 weeks)
3: -7 (1 week)
Total -28.8 (14 weeks)
Normal spans will be around 8 weeks. Doctor visits are 2 months apart.

Friday, June 24, 2016

Drinking Guinness PlayList

1 Celtic Thunder - Whiskey in the Ja
2 Avalon - a Celtic Legend
3 Lark and Spur - Down by the Sally Gardens
4 Irish Descendants - Uncle Dan
5 Orthodox Celts - The Star of the County Down
6 The Irish Rovers - Drunken Sailor
7 Enya - The River Sings
8 The Corrs - Joy of Life
9 Cherish the Ladies - Ballad of the Fox Hunter
10 Seamus Egan - I Will Remember You
11 Altan - Harvest Storm
12 Clannad - I Will Find You
13 Dougie MacLean - Caledonia
14 Adrian von Zielger - A Celtic Tale
15 Tracey Hewat - The Firelands
16 Joan McInnes - Song for Ireland
17 Frederic Weatherly - Danny Boy
18 Celtic Legends - The Irish Washer Woman
19 Gaelic Storm - Black is the Color
20 Gaelic Storm - Nancy Whiskey

Gay Club PlayList

1 Divine - You Think You're A Man (Extended)
2 Carole Pope - High school confidential
3 Heather Small - Proud
4 Dead Or Alive - You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)
5 Frankie Goes To Hollywood - Relax
6 Mika - Grace Kelly
7 CeCe Peniston - Finally
8 Franz Ferdinand - Michael
9 Electric Six - Gay Bar
10 Robyn - Hang with Me
11 Bikini Kill - Rebel Girl
12 Cyndi Lauper - True Colors
13 Soft Cell - Tainted Love
14 ABBA - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme!
15 Donna Summer - Last Dance
16 David Bowie - The Jean Genie
17 C+C Music Factory - Gonna Make You Sweat
18 Pink - Raise Your Glass
19 Katy Perry - Firework
20 The Weather Girls - It’s Raining Men

Something Different PlayList

1 Postmodern Jukebox - Black Hole Sun
2 Postmodern Jukebox - Royals (Ft. Puddles Pitty Party)
3 Postmodern Jukebox - Juicy (ft. Maiya Sykes)
4 Vintage Café - No Diggity (Ft. Natty Bong)
5 Vintage Café - Everything's Not Lost (Ft. Karen Souza)
6 Vintage Café - The Sweetest Taboo (Ft. Scubba, Ivette Moraes)
7 Steve'N'Seagulls - Nothing Else Matters
8 Iron Horse - Rocket Man
9 Iron Horse - Sweet Child O' Mine
10 Hayseed Dixie - Highway To Hell
11 Hayseed Dixie - Bohemian Rhapsody video
12 35th Street - Adam Hawley
13 Julian Vaughn - You're Mine
14 Lindsey Webster - Open Up
15 Marcus Anderson - Cup of Joe (Ft. Matt Marshak)
16 Fourplay - Anniversario
17 Steve Cole - Mirage
18 3rd Force - Breakout
19 Javier Colon - Gravity
20 Darren Rahn - D-Luxe

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Movie Ratings June 18, 2016

Citidel (2011) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1641975/

The Losers (2010) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0480255/

They Look Like People (2015) (3/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt4105970/

The Crying Game (1992) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0104036/

A Streetcar Named Desire (1951) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0044081/

Criminal Activities (2015) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt3687310/

Selfless (self/less) (2015) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2140379/

Hitman: Agent 47 (2015) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2679042/

The Imposter (2012) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1966604/

Deliver Us From Evil (2014) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2377322/

The Hunters (2011) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1591504/

Bunker 6 (2013) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2591378/

Rampart (2011) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1640548/

The Monitor (2011) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1595833/

Meadowland (2015) (4/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt3529656/

Splatter (2015) (1/5)
NO IMDB LOL - It's That Good.

Strange Blood (2015) (2/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt3304756/

Kumiko, The Treasure Hunter (2014) (5/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt3263614/

Zoombies (2016) (1/5)
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt5340882/

Thursday, June 16, 2016

The Good Doctors Can Do. Not!

Was at one time prescribed seroquel and it made my condition worse. The so called Doctor at the time kept raising the dosage and it kept getting worse. I ended up in Hospital for 3 weeks.

This medication can cause permanent tremors in the body. Now my hands shake if I try to do any fine work or sometimes when I pick things up. Because of this I can no longer draw by hand. This has forever been taken from me.

It 's also cause Heart attacks. Irregular heartbeat. It can even cause Heart failure to set in. I am told there is a chance I've had a heart attack and I'm in heart failure.

The convergence of my physical problems and the side effects seems a bit more than random. It also can cause memory loss and I am very forgetful now.

It seems the bad doctoring has literally destroyed my life.

Risperidone is what I am on now. It works perfect for controlling my condition. It also causes rapid weight gain and I'm over 440lbs at this moment and was almost 500 at one point.

This medication has more than likely kept me from being homeless and talking to God in the streets. But it has damaged me.

The first medication made it worse and put me three a living he'll for 6 months of my life. It also may have shortened my life quite a bit.

What can I say. A doctor why never figured out what was wrong with me or why damaged me in unforgivable ways. She then gave me back my sanity but at a very high price.

Now with all my medical problems I tend to be ignored constantly by doctors who literally won't let me describe what is happening in detail. I am often passed off and sent home untreated. I have been in unspeakable pain and given over the counter meds that are for pain one tenth of what I was in. I also have a doctor who does not believe fibromyalgia and CFS is real.

I'm stuck. If I move to a different province I will end up in poverty as disability here pays way more than other places. Here I can't always eat healthy all the way threw the month on what I make, but I'm doing a lot better than I was.

To put it in perspective, I'm stuck and I'm done for.

Saturday, June 11, 2016

Critical Update? And Storage Devices


Yeah that worked well. So for some reason McAfee updater and or Microsoft thinks I have Office 2010. Well I stopped using that a long time ago to use the newest version that has the cloud storage and what not. BTW it's a great deal, for $7 a month (plus tax) you get all off the office apps and 1TB of storage. I love the storage I keep a hell of a lot of things in there like my software downloads and a large amount of photos and music. We are talking about tens of thousands of files. This way if the place burns down and I lose all my drives then I can get it all from the cloud. I have a 2TB external and a 3TB portable drive that I keep in my fire safe. There is little chance of all 3 failing at once - that being primary storage in the PC, the external and the portable. Not to mention I have a 64GB stick I can dump a massive amount of video on and take it to a friends or out for coffee with me and they can toss it on their laptop out there. The thing is a USB 3 and one of the faster ones. The bit rate is very high and I love it. For my high zoom camera I have a 1000X class 10 64GB SDHC card. The thing is capable of recording 4K video without blinking - although the camera only does 1080P at 60HZ. But I can take a couple hour hours of video and hundreds of photos while out on a shoot and it will dump them threw the card reader onto the PC in a very short time.

YouTube Why You Email Me So Much?


YouTube you suck. So I have it set to NOT email me when an upload is finished, yet here we are getting emails literally every time I upload for the last two weeks. Sigh. Not to mention it's hit and miss if the uploader is going to even work properly that day or not. Some times it will literally have five hours to upload a six minute video. With a file size of 781mb you would think it would go up fast, nope very slow. The speed test on my modem is clocking the upload at 7.23mbs, so it's not the modem. The next day I uploaded a 1.35 GB video in 11 minutes. So your guess is as good as mine as to what the hell is going on with the YouTube uploader this last while. Not to mention Chrome for a moment there was literally not allowing me to upload to any site at all. Go figure.

So Shaw Cable Phoned


Yuppers got me a call from Shaw Cable. Last time I complained and they put me on the so called don't call list. So I am not supposed to be called by them for marketing crap anymore, but as you see here they are calling. Sigh. It's from their call centre. So I kind of call this no call list a fail...

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

June 7th, 2016 playlist

1 Bob Dylan - Lay Lady Lay
2 Rob Zombie - Lords Of Salem
3 Marilyn Manson - Tainted Love
4 System Of A Down - Fuck The System
5 Cyberpunkers - Fuck The System
6 Die Antwoord - I Fink U Freeky
7 Die Antwoord - Fatty Boom Boom
8 Eisenfunk - Pentafunk
9 Rammstein - Du Hast
10 Rammstein - Engel
11 Metallica - Whiskey In The Jar
12 The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright
13 Slipknot - Psychosocial
14 Punky Meadows - Fallen Angel
15 The Struts - Kiss This
16 Stray Cats - Stray Cat Strut
17 Alestorm - Drink
18 Stevie Wonder - I Just Called To Say I Love You
19 Cyndi Lauper - Girls Just Want To Have Fun
20 Culture Club - Karma Chameleon
21 Wham! - Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go
22 Village People - YMCA
23 Pet Shop Boys - Absolutely Fabulous
24 Joe Cocker - With A Little Help Of My Friends
25 Janis Joplin - Piece Of My Heart
26 The Doors - Riders On The Storm
27 Jimi Hendrix Experience - Hey Joe Live
28 Eric Clapton - Layla
29 Stevie Ray Vaughan - Texas Flood (Montreux 1985)
30 Jefferson Airplane - White Rabbit

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