The Panic Attack From Hell

I've been having panic attacks for decades. I get a hell of a lot of them, but most of them only last a few minutes then they pass. However I can at times get them all day long for days on end.

But yesterday was different. In the thumbnail, it says entering hour 3 of the worst panic attack of my life. Well that was just the start. This bloody thing lasted for over 6 hours and I was on the edge of having to go to the ER the entire time.

Now it's been a hell of a long time since I had to go to the ER over it, and I would rather not. But I have in the past. They give you a pill, and 20 minutes later the panic stops. But the wait is often very long, and most of the time the attack would have ended by the time I got in.

I'm having one at this very moment by the way. It's not as bad, but they are never comfortable at all. They always suck. I hate that they make me dizzy as hell. I've tried meds decades ago and it made me feel like crap, so I've been living with it since. However, I think I may ask the doctor to give me something when I see him this morning. I have a UTI that needs meds, so I am off to see him. Thank God that I was able to get in the next day from when I called.

They don't tend to like giving out meds for panic attacks/anxiety, so I don't know what will happen. But I hope I get something. I want this to go away now. As I get older, it's getting worse. I'm done fighting with this, and if I have to be medicated into a half zombie, I'm willing to do that.

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