Of Being A Good Person In An Evil World

It’s been a hell of a ride for years to say the least. I’ve gone a lifetime (more or less) trying to brighten others day, and to help how I can when I can. The reward is a feeling of self-worth, but it comes at a cast in our society filled with evil. Below is a conversation between me and a friend.

Me: I'm disillusioned with this world of ours. It's easy and rewarding to be bad. We glorify crime, violence, hate, racism and all things evil. But those who want to be good will most likely struggle all their lives. It's the cunning employee with malice in his heart that gets promoted even though the good person is more qualified. If you spread love you, and you get attacked by so many out there. I'm tired of it all. There is reward and trying to make people happy, but from firsthand experience, there is danger as well. This world is mostly evil or apathy, the close cousin of evil. People put on the face of goodness in order to do evil and are loved. Those who spread the true message of good are threatened and called names. Is it worth it? Is it worth trying to improve lives just a little? Every day that's what I do. All over, I leave positive comments and encourage people and get attacked for it. I have always been attacked over it. All my life, it's been the same, and now I'm alone, poor, and persecuted. A lifetime of trying to help got me what? God, forbid I show faith in God as well - that only brings reward if you pervert it for evil means.

Friend: Evil will attack good and try to wear them down and cause them to quit. Quitting is the easy part. Staying the course and doing good is hard. I try to do good because it is the morally right thing to do. I do this without the expectation of recognition and reward.  What the other person does with the gift of good is on them. Give yourself credit for all the good you have done.

In the end I have doubts about the worth of humanity in general, but I will spend my days trying to do good for others. I have a large capacity to love, and I just can’t sit back and do nothing for the people I may be able to make happy, at least for a few moments in time. For some, it’s all they need to continue going on, and it’s needed. You never know how you can change a life with a simple act of entertainment of being kind. Even if I had no faith in God, I’d be doing this, it’s how I’m programed to be.

I find it interesting that my brother was raised by the same giving, loving and caring parents as I was, and ended up a selfish, manipulative person – even before he became a drug addict, it had to be all about him, and nothing could possibly make him happy. He was born broken, I guess. Perhaps this is what the heck is up with humanity, but I’ll never know. People have always been selfish, angry, and ready for violence. But I’ll never be that way.

All I know is that the utopia world earth is on Star Trek will never happen, we will use everything up and continue to make war and exploit for the pleasure and greed of a very few – the worst thing is, we are allowing it to happen and we worship these greedy people who have poisoned out minds and out world. It will be the end of us, or at least, the end of civilization – one day that is.

For now, I will give thanks for the good people around me – the ones who keep me going and keep me from just hiding from the world. I want to give my love to all, but wonder if it’s ever going to be rewarded, other than for a feeling of self-worth and accomplishment? Probably not, but this can be enough for me.