I have depression anxiety disorder. It can be a hell of a thing at times, and December is one of those times. The holidays are for family and friends. Well, I'm the last of my family, the rest are dead. Any cousins out there don't give a crap that I even exist. They have no time for a pansexual or a disabled person. As soon as I went on disability they stopped talking to me for the most part. When Mom died, it was all over, and they would not even look me in the eye if they saw me in a store. So now when the holiday season hits, I get the feeling of loss deeply and I get depressed. The desire to be with loved ones this time of year is powerful to say the least. It makes me feel horrible that there is no one to be with. As for friends, we can't really afford to get together for the holidays and celebrate. This year is going to be doubly hard on me, as I can't afford Christmas food for a celebration on the day. The things I normally get are out of reach, as the prices of ...
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