What 10 things have you stopped doing in your life?

1. Trying to please everyone. It’s not a possibility, so just be you and to hell with those who don’t like it.

2. Giving people a second chance after they hurt me. I will forgive them in a very short time, but I’m never going to let them back in my life, I’m done with them right away.

3. Looking for a better tomorrow. This sounds horrible, but I am not going to look for and or hope for a better tomorrow. Instead, I’m going to see today as all I have and enjoy it as much as I can in my limited capacity.

4. Looking for a life partner. I tried three times to find a true love in this world. All three times they turned out to be abusive controlling and manipulative women. They literally laid hands on me. I gave up on that dream, as I’m obviously only going to be attracted to the same kind over and over.

5. Driving. I am no longer safe to drive, I don’t think. I not only get blinded by oncoming headlights, but I blank out at times for a couple of minutes – that just is not good when you are driving a car.

6. Trying to prove my worth. I spent way too much time trying to make the world see me for what I am, and that I have value. It’s not possible to do it. A lot of people look at disabled people and or plus sized people and assume you are stupid and lazy. They don’t see you as giving anything to this world but only taking from them – when the reality is an extremely little amount of their taxes go to those on benefits.

7. Having sex with people. I completely don’t want the bother that is having sex with someone. Yes, it was fun and enjoyable. However, there is a lot more to it than just banging one out, and I don’t want the bother of hooking up with people. I’d just rather wank one out and be done with it – I don’t have to talk with some strange person after. My friend with benefits has died as well, so that is gone as an option.

8. Trying to keep my place nice and clean. It’s super hard for me to clean these days. I’ve become a lot more disabled in the last couple of years. I can’t get on my knees to clean anymore and even moping or vacuuming is horribly hard on my body and causes days of pain after. So, the place is rather a mess compared to how I used to keep it.

9. Trying to understand humanity. It is just not possible for me to think like the average person. I’m neurodivergent and it’s just not going to happen – It’s literally impossible for me to think like the average person.

10. BDSM. Yup I used to be rather deeply into being tied up and smacked around. I liked to be dominated (especially by women). But now that my disability and my fibromyalgia are so much worse, it’s just not something I can do. The pain of being restrained is just too great, and I have more than enough pain now, so being inflicted on me would be an overload. As well, I’ve very much lost the desire for it in general – I guess I finally grew out of it.