Update on Life and More

Here I am smiling because I have one of my subscriptions being covered by a friend from now on. It's only $8.88 but it helps a little - every little bit of saving helps me, and I no longer have to worry about it. As well, other than yesterday being a series of strong panic attacks, this week has been mostly very good to me. I am loved, I am safe, I am warm and dry, I have food to eat, I have streaming to watch, I have music to listen too - Life if good and I am grateful.

I've only been eating once a day for more than a week now. This was the result last week on Tuesday. This is Sunday, in 2 more days I'll see if I am down even more or not. I was not trying to do this, it's just that my tummy has been upset for a long time and I am generally not feeling hungry at all. Normally because of a medication I feel hungry all the time, even when I am very full of food - but right now, I don't feel like eating, and I have no idea why. Loss of apatite can be a sign of several serious medical conditions, but I really don't think that's it. I think it's just my tummy being upset all the time killing the urge to eat. If it keeps up much longer, I'll go to my doctor and get checked out, I just don't really like the idea of the possibility of a scope being crammed down my throat to my stomach.

This is a cool coaster my friend knitted for me a few years ago. If you don't see it, it's a cats butt LOL. It brings me joy every time I look at it, so I am extra happy every time I have coffee or tea. It's the little things that make you smile some times.

The program using almost all of my CPU time is one I use a lot to make 3D fractals. You really can't do anything else while it's running unless you turn down the thread count on it. I've never had a program do this before, it's the only one that uses a vast amount of CPU time. Everything else knows how to share with other programs. I'd like to see someone make a 64 bit version of the program, and fix a couple of bugs in it while they are at it. But I don't think that is going to happen, the person who has been updating it, I am told is no longer going that - so it's now unsupported as far as future updates.