A DREAM I DON'T ENJOY AT ALL

My recurring dream that I really don't enjoy is that I'm searching in a hospital for someone I care about (the person changes from time to time). I can't find the room and no one I talk to will even look at me. It's like they don't care I'm there or they don't hear me. The building is like a maze and is changing all the time. I go back down a hall and it's different. I know the person needs me, but I can't get to them.


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