I'll Never Hide My Feelings or Who I Am
This was on my wall the other day. It ended up with a few great replies mostly talking about how most people do hide at least part of who they are. I like this reply a lot. There is no part of my life that I have left unsaid, either on Facebook, Twitter, This blog, or my YouTube videos. I've shared the good times, my memories, my pain, my sorrow, my extreme sex drive - nothing was left unsaid. I've even on rare cases talked about this fetish I have for self castration, something you should never do BTW. I've given more than a little thought about what it might be like to cut the boys off. Fortunately, I know more than most people do of what happens to you if you get stupid enough to carry it out. Lets just say, it can fuck your entire body up and even kill you. But enough of that nonsense. I know a lot of people think I'm crazy for just saying everything I feel or think, but to be honest I literally don't understand not wanting to. Hell I've even talked about that youth pastor - but that would be a blog in it's self. All I know is I have a lot of good friends who support me all the way no matter what, and nothing will change that. I am also there for them any time they need me. There are a few people I have set to get threw to me on the phone even if it's on silent mode, just in case they need to talk. to be honest, I don't know where it came from. My parents where both very closed people who did not have the ability to just say "I love you" all that often. They hid their feelings and I was for years the same. Then in my 30's I decided to just change everything and I did. I'm still a work in progress and will be until my last breath, but God have I changed over the years. It was in no small part, with help from good friends. I am grateful for my friends - they replaced the family that turned away from me.