Friday, March 31, 2017

Pusheen Tea Part Playlist

1 Chris Isaak - Think of Tomorrow
2 The Monkees - Last Train To Clarksville
3 The Seekers - Georgy Girl
4 Slade - My Oh My
5 The Dead South - Long Gone
6 Puddles Pity Party & Haley Reinhart - Mad World
7 Santana - Soul Sacrifice
8 Rolling Stones - Wild Horses
9 George Harrison - My Sweet Lord
10 Grateful Dead - Touch of Grey
11 Lynyrd Skynyrd - Freebird
12 Cream - White Room
13 Johnny Cash - (Ghost) Riders In The Sky
14 Joe Walsh - Life's Been Good
15 Slade - Cum On Feel The Noize
16 Meat Loaf - Paradise By The Dashboard Light
17 The Moody Blues - Your Wildest Dreams
18 The Knack - My Sharona
19 John Denver - Take Me Home, Country Roads
20 Traveling Wilburys - End Of The Line

10 Movies You Did Not Know You Should Watch

1 Metropolis (1927)

2 Nosferatu (1922)

3 The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari (1920)

4 The Seventh Seal (1957)

5 Stalker (1979)

6 Ghost in the Shell (1995)

7 The City of Lost Children (1995)

8 Fantastic Planet (1973)

9 Soylent Green (1973)

10 THX 1138 (1971)

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Twice The Fool AKA 44 Years The Fool

I've talked about this person already and his actions in my time of need. But I tried to offer my friendship once again, just in case I was wrong. He did not even have the decency to respond to me. So I sent him an email to say how I feel.

The email I just sent: "We have known each other for 44 years. I have done many things for you in this time and never asked for anything. When I was in deep need of help your greed for money outweighed our friendship and you would not help me. I was willing to even overlook this and offered the hand friendship once again. You did not even have the decency to reply to my text. I guess I was very wrong about you for a very long time. You only seem to care about you. Well I am a person who gives freely of myself and I have to say your actions have hurt me deeply twice this month. I am done. I can't keep expecting decency when there never has been any. Have a nice life."

What makes me most sad about this is when he broke up with his boyfriend (the only real relationship he ever had) I comforted him. The reality is what I said to him was all to comfort him. It was NOT the fault of his boyfriend and I knew this. It was all on him. His desire to control every aspect of the mans life and change him into what he thought his boyfriend should be.

It's always been the same. When he played in bands he was always right even when he was glaringly wrong. He thought he was top notch when in fact he was only able to play basic patterns and not jazz it up one bit. I had seem him play many times and always said "you did great" (being ever supportive), the reality being he played exactly the same basic beginners drum pattern to every song and was always lagging slightly behind.

In school the combination of him being a very small boy and his condescending attitude to most people got him in trouble a lot. Thinking he was my friend I would literally fight for him. I was bigger and stronger most of the time and when I was not I knew how to fight and would win the day. To think back I wonder how I missed the fact that he never thanked me for it - like it was expected.

I had helped him many times with his car and with his computer and many other things. Year after year this went on. The one time I needed his help he said no and told me "friends don't exploit friends". The reality of the matter is anyone who was really your friend would have helped in a heart beat and others offered when this came to light. Instead I sucked up the great pain I was in and just did it myself in anger over it all.

You have to realize as well this is a man who is 51 years old and has lived with his parents for all but 4 months of that time. The 4 months being the failed relationship part. In this time he has never paid rent to his parents, instead he has hidden how much money he has hidden away from them and gone on trips all over the place. He has been to places most people with his income only dream about it is all due to the fact he uses his parents like he uses the rest of the people he knows.

Like all users he does it with a smiling face. He gets you to do things for him then never returns the favor. Like all users if you ask him for something, he is too busy or will ask to be paid for his time. He knows me better than my family does and he know I won't ask for help unless I really need it. Here is the twist he thinks doing a simple favor for me is exploiting him when he has used everyone in his life all of his life.

People have woken up to his ways - people we where both friends with. They after said things to me like, "why do you still hang out with him, can't you see what he is doing"? I always passed it on in the name of friendship. This is the great and deep tragedy, not the fact that we are done as far as our relationship - but that I NEVER listened to the many voices of others telling me to wake the fuck up. Even after I realized full on how he was I still tried to be kind and be his friend. How stupid I feel right now.

I look at all the people he knows and it's all the same for every last one of them. It's all about him getting what he wants. He has had people do so many things for him and in return he has done nothing or only enough to keep them coming back as he needs them. Being that he has someone else for his tech help now I have been tossed aside like trash.

I am deeply sad, not for this loss of friendship - for I know it never existed - but for how blind and gullible I was for all those years. 44 years a fool and if it was not for this last indecent I would still be one.

But in the end it's how I am. I am a giver, not a taker. I will always offer my help when it's needed. I will also never expect anything back in return.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

OMF Twitter Why Is This So Hard? (Bad Words)

OK... Literally the hardest thing I have ever done online was logging into the FUCKING TWITTER for windows APP. Holly shit on a stick. Well it won't accept your actual password so it gives you an app on in a text message. WELL it's about impossible to type it in with no mistakes and it if you fuck it up even once - your account is LOCKED. So then you have to log in with the browser and have it send you a reset link then reset the password then go back to the FUCKING APP and well by this time it WON'T accept the temp password you got the first time so it texts you a 2nd one and you have to hope to GOD you don't fuck this one up... Sigh - thank GOD I got the 2nd one typed in right. Literally never had this much problem logging into anything ever... I'm only using this crap app because Twitter seems to FUCKING HATE Chrome right now and every single time I post a link from Chrome it locks me out saying some suspicious web site is using your account. Sigh... IT'S YOUR FUCKING WEB SITE I'M ON AT THE TIME. Sigh... God knows it will be 8 months till they even realize there is a big ass bug and fix it's ass or anything. SIGH... DANG...

6 Drinks To Enjoy

Cum Short

1 part butterscotch schnapps
1 part Bailey's Irish cream
Top with whipped cream

Girl Scout Cookie

1/2 oz Bailey's Irish cream
1/2 oz Kahlua coffee liqueur
1/2 oz peppermint schnapps

Chocolate Snake Bite

1/2 oz Bailey's Irish cream
1/2 oz Kahlua coffee liqueur
1/2 oz brown creme de cacao
1/2 oz Goldschlager cinnamon schnapps

Butter Chocolate Bliss

1 oz Kahlua® coffee liqueur
1 oz butterscotch schnapps
2 oz chilled milk

Godiva Chocolate Covered Banana

1/2 oz dark rum
2 oz chocolate liqueur
1 banana
1/2 cup vanilla ice cream

Blend in a bar blender until smooth. Pour into a highball glass and garnish with some of the remaining banana.

Suck My Chocolate Banana

1 1/4 oz Kahlua® coffee liqueur
1 1/4 oz creme de bananes
1 1/4 oz creme de cacao
1 1/4 oz Malibu® coconut rum
1 dash half-and-half

Fill highball or Collins glass half way with ice. Pour liguors over ice. Add a dash of half/half.

Saturday, March 25, 2017


And When I Find $20 In My Pocket...

So put on my coat and there was a $20 bill in the pocket. Woot. So I done ordered this puppy. At least it was not all kinds of processed meats. When I order a pizza this last while it's about the same as this - no meat, just veggies. Well the crust is not the best thing in the world to eat after all, but at least I do the thin crust. Also a large will be two feeds for me. It was a celebration for dropping over 73 lbs in the last year. In the last 2 years I'm over 100 (only just). With luck the next year will be the same - a good amount of weight loss.

March 24, 2017 in Photos...

What The Hell Twitter?

So this shows up every 2 FLIPPING DAYS. I have not used any web pages to share a link on Twitter in ages other than ones that are safe to use. The only service I have authorized to use my Twitter is Google (YouTube and what not), My flipping phone app (made BY Twitter) and Nothing Else. There is NEVER anything in the log about anything posting to my Twitter other than Google and my App on the phone EVER. So why the shit am I getting this so often.

Not to mention Every time I close Chrome and load it up again Twitter opens and Facebook opens has my home pages. Well it asks me to log into Twitter even though I keep clicking the "Remember Me" box. And well 4 times now LOCKED instead of logging in.

I see a few other people complaining that it is doing this when they access from the PC as well. So at least I am not alone. Here is the real LOL, it was doing this in 2012 as well as far as I can see. 

Fecking Government And Their Forms LOL.

Here is the deal - Mom died on July 20th 2017. So March 21st 2017 they send me this. It's money they did not at first know was owed to Mom. They wanted to know her Social Insurance Number of course. Well it's almost 5 years. How many people would have actually kept that information? The entire time thinking that the estate was done with and all.

So I filled out the form and got it witnessed by a friend. Now I just have to send it out. The (as mentioned in the letter) enclosed an envelope to send it back. Not a stamped one of course, as they will make you pay for that...

Really do have to wonder if they expected me NOT to have some of the information they asked for. Typical government there...

BTW I was NOT the executor of the will. For legal reasons, I had a friend do that. So they first sent him a letter and had him fill out a form. They literally said in the letter who do we send the check to. SO instead of a check I get a FORM to fill out and mail in. Sigh.

Playing With My Endoscope...

 Nose... This is why I don't breath threw my nose - it's shut like this all the time...
 Card Slot on the PC Case...
 Under the desk...
 Side of the desk...
 The monitor sowing the capture software...
And keyboard again...

Friday, March 24, 2017

Weight Week 52 (end of year 1)


Mar 22, 2016
Mar 28, 2016
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 30, 2016
May 6, 2016
May 13, 2016
May 20, 2016
May 27, 2016
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 10, 2016
June 17, 2016
June 25, 2016
July 1, 2016
July 8, 2016
July 14, 2016
July 22, 2016
July 29, 2016
Aug 6, 2016
Aug 11, 2016
Aug 20, 2016
Aug 26, 2016
Sep 2, 2016
Sep 10, 2016
Sep 17, 2016
Sep 23, 2016
Oct 2, 2016
Oct. 8, 2016
Oct. 15, 2016
Oct. 20, 2016
Oct. 28, 2016
Nov. 4, 2016
Nov. 11, 2016
Nov. 18, 2016
Nov. 25, 2016
Dec.2, 2016
Dec. 9, 2016
Dec. 16, 2016
Dec, 24, 2016
Dec 30, 2016
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 20, 2017
Jan 25, 2017
Feb 3, 2017
Feb 10, 2017
Feb 17, 2017
Feb 24, 2017
Mar 3, 2017
Mar 10, 2017
Mar 17, 2017
Mar 24, 2017


Change (lbs)

No change
+6 P.F
+2.2 P.F
+2.2 P.F
+10 P.F.
+8.6 ?
+2.2 W.W.
+7.4 W.W. P.F.
+5.2 Fruit W.W.
+2.6 W.W.
+4.0 Christmas
+4.2 Christmas
+3.0 W.W.
+9.2 P.F
+5 J.F.

Total -73.4 lbs (52 Weeks) Goal 70 lbs

W.W. Water Weight
P.F.     Processed Foods
J.F.      Junk Food
P.        Pizza

B.        Burgers

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Hay Facebook Fix This Will Ya?

Ya know I would really rather use the phone for Facebook but this is getting on my last nerve. I would like to have it NOT go behind the stupid color ball crap when I'm typing. Yes you can move it up - but then you have to KEEP moving it up every single line of text. This feature is not even that useful to me as most of the time I end up trying way more than the limit for the color background. As well some people are REALLY annoyed when we use the colored background. Meh - I like it now and then, but this needs fixing.

Why I Won't Be 80 When I Die

 Not only did I spend the first 20 years or so of my life in the same home as a chain smoker, I smoked for several years lightly. I'm kind of sure cigars are way worse than cigarettes...
 Until the last year of my life I would consume mass amounts of food at least 4 times a week. This lead me to be the size I am today (and then some). I've lost 70 lbs or about in the last 52 weeks, but the damage is done and my heart is not as healthy as it should be.
 Not sticking to eating when I should. See I have this problem with my brain that now and then I feel hungry when I in fact am not hungry. This lead to may times me going and eating out of the fridge in the middle of the night and so on. That just added to the large feeds I would have.
 I can no longer afford to do this, but I used to once a week consume mass amounts of alcohol to the point of not being able to walk right. I did this from about the time I was 20 to about the time I was 43. Then I toned it down and only went on a tare now and then. Now I really rather just have a sip. But once again - the damage is done. More than likely whey I keep losing things - I just have no memory now...
 Well I stopped drinking way too much and I stopped eating mass amounts of crap food. BUT I still drink 6 to 12 cups of coffee every single day of my life. This just can't be good for me. I remembering the doctor recommending that I switch to decaf and me saying "I would rather die". This is my last pleasure and I ain't giving this one up.
OK this has nothing to do with the fact I am doing to drop dead before I'm 80 - but I just look so dang good in drag. Ya know ya wanna.

Cable Killer?

Here is the kicker. Most people who cut the cable go to just streaming services instead of a device like you see here. As well all but one person I know who has a Loaded Android Box has cut the cable first in order to save money to pay the bills and feed themselves - NOT to screw over the cable companies.

If you get a basic package all you get is shows that are geared for the hard of thinking quite frankly. This leads you to paying for several other packages on the service and pills up the bill in my case to $120 a month. For me to be watching literally 5 TV shows that I enjoyed watching for $120 a month is absurd.

Yes I did actually like the concept of being able to blindly pick threw channels to watch something when I had nothing else to do. But I can also save a pile of money and just watch something on YouTube or Netflix instead.

It's actually a bother to use Kodi to watch things and if I had a lot more money than I do, I would still have cable TV. You see the quality of the streams is never that great compared to Netflix or Cable. As well you are sometimes faced with content that is NOT what you wanted to watch or subtitles over the image for some language you don't speak or read (this is distracting and annoying).

If I had the ability to just pay for the Basic cable and the very few other channels I watched, then cable would be a lot less money and a valid option. But having to have 4 different packages all from $10 to $25 in price just to watch 5 TV shows I like is not a valid option. I simply do not have the money to do this. I am on disability and only get $1123 a month. What is left over after rent, food and bills is not all that much.

I was left in a situation that the ONLY way to pay for the shows I like is to shell out $120 a month for a pile of channels I will never watch.

Would you pay continually for someone else's gas at the service station and not be able to get a ride from them? No you would not. Yes some channels are pick and pay, but not one of the channels I want for the content I want is in this category.

Maybe it's time to start giving people the freedom of choice they want in cable TV. Maybe it's time to stop making them pay a large amount of money for content they do not desire.

Then there are things in the so called basic package you HAVE to pay for by law in Canada. Things that I have never and will never watch. But they government demands that these channels be there to subsidize content that is forced on us. I don't speak french and I am not a Christian but they push on us 3 french channels and 2 Christian channels. Why the hell are these specialty channels not in some package? Oh because no one would want them and they would fail.

The more demanded content and the most viewed are all in the highest price range. Shows that are vastly popular and the networks that put them out want large profit for it instead of making it up in bulk. Then the cable companies and the content providers say they are being ripped off by people streaming and downloading.

It's a sad reality that most people I know literally just can't afford to pay for cable any more. The bills go up and up and up and the content stays the same. There is also only the choice of pay large amounts for good content and have the "basic package" you don't watch or have nothing at all.

Honestly I think a lot of people would go back to cable if they just had to pay for the channels they want and no all the extra stuff they don't desire to watch.