July Blogging Challenge Day 8
What was my biggest challenge today?
Going to the doctors office. It was very busy in there and the waiting room is used by three doctors, so a lot of people I don't know where in there. I don't do well being alone with a lot of strangers at all. My anxiety was pinned to maximum the entire time and I was on the edge of all out panic.
Then when I got in there the doctor took a long time to get to the injection I needed in my left knee. Being that he was training an person from the front desk (not a medical professional at all) to help with the task, I was again uncomfortable.
I have a long lasting deep rooted fear of getting up on the examining table, and being that he wanted me too, I had to tell him I am afraid of it. He was able to do it while I was in a chair thank GOD or I'd have to have done up on the examining table and I'd probably have been on the edge of literally loosing my shit up there.
The injection was extremely painful and hours later still hurts. But it helped last time to dull the knee pain for months, so it's worth it, if it works this time.
To top things off, I forgot to delay taking my water pill and I seriously had to pee by the time he got to me. Because the guy in the next room was going to be a short time, he skipped me and did him, then did the injection and I was in pain my bladder was so full. They do NOT have a public bathroom, so I could not go, and needed to wait to get home.
My friend on the way home was worse than ever with her driving and it made me a lot uneasy. Not to mention several times people came blasting up past the stop sign and I thought that we would be hit by a car. People in Moose Jaw drive like idiots for the most part it seems.
So my biggest challenge was going out to a place I'd be alone with a bunch of people I don't know. The rest was just to cause even more anxiety.
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