Blog Post 4444 AKA All These Years of Expression

I've been doing this blog for years. I think in the last few years, I've been doing it a lot more than I used to do. There is also the Tag Question Blog, but I have not updated that in years I don't think. Then there is the Nudist Blog that I tend to just ignore most of the time. But this personal blog that is a snapshot of my thoughts has been part of my life for a while now.

I like the easy of expressing myself in text form, or sharing photos, art, AI jigsaw puzzles - or whatever. The art of blogging seems to be dead for the most part in the light of social media and video sharing sights and apps, but I still love doing this. It feels natural to me, and I think for the most part, I'm better at expressing myself in text form than I am in speaking.

I think everyone should do this to be honest. It is a good way to express yourself, if only to yourself. It does not need to be public, you can do it just for yourself, or a select invited few if you desire. There is something to working out thoughts in text form that makes my mind think of topics deeper than it does normally. I can't really explain that, but it seems, for me, to be the way of things.

There is no end to the "blogging prompts", or "Journal prompts" you can get online. They can be good for working things out and exploring who you are - this is a great thing for younger people, who may not have figured out who they are yet, and are exploring identity still. It's a good psychological workout as well - a way to express thoughts you don't want to say to people.

I got into this in high school. We had a teacher that got us to get a binder just for this purpose - to express our thoughts and get them out to the front of our minds. She would have us do this once a week in English class. This was 100% for us, and us alone, she never looked at it.

I remember being on the mental ward a couple of times and writing things out on a notebook I had Mom bring me. The shink was interested and asked if she could see it. She told me she was impressed at how I expressed my thoughts on paper. It's just a good exercise for the self if you ask me.

I have to say, I know Mom snooped at mine - I saw her doing it several times. There was stuff in there I'd never have said to her in person - but she never got in my face about it. I think she knew she was violating my privacy and it was wrong, but she just could not stand anything to be a secret from her - it was a mental failing in her LOL. But it was all good. I never held back my thoughts because she might see them. To be honest, I never did put anything about my sex life that she did not know existed however. I never felt the need to do that.

I rather wish I had kept them all and would be able to transpose them and put them all on here. But it's all gone now. I had a few from when I had my first PC, but I lost them and I have no idea how. I must have deleted the wrong thing and it was gone for good.

A guy I used to date in my teen years had an interesting way of prayer. He would write it on a bit of paper, then burn it with some dry leaves, so the smoke would carry the prayer to the Gods. This I found interesting. I've never done it myself however - but I've written poems to God in the past.

In any event, I'm glad I have the opportunity to express myself in this manner. It's both for those who see the content and mostly for myself, just to express myself and get it out into the universe. I do find it interesting that several people who despise me deeply for no valid reason, have seen ever post I have ever published LOL. I find that amazing. If I don't care for a person, I cut them from my thoughts - they are, to the most part, gone from my mind. I don't care to look at their online lives - it's just stupid to me to do so. They are gone to me, and my life is the better for that. But some people are deeply mentally ill in this manner and can't just let anything go - they need to know, and to me this is just them damaging themselves.

Well, to end this post, I want to say, thanks for all the years of consuming my content and for all the love I've been shown. There are a few very close people who see it all, and express to me privately, as they don't want to be in the public eye - this is a deep blessing to me. I love you guys and pray for your comfort and Peace of mind. Be well and know you are loved.